layz

2007-08-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

permanent hiatus.

farewell~

2007-07-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

This wk marks the finale for my entire 1 and half year of ccas.

Tue: SYF choral closing ceremony. I would very much like to say tt its a nice perfect ending, but i have to say with much regrets and its not. Last sat, i alr started to hv throat infection. i shud hv made more sense to slp enough and eat the right diet, but alas, my tonsils got worse and worse on tue during the course of the day. The more i sing, more the feeble my voice became...until its reduced to a state tt my voice become nothing but "sexy". Felt extremely guilty for having to pressurise the people around me to sing my parts, with a few hours or even minutes' notice to learn the parts and perform onstage, and also having to endure scoldings together. Also missed the chance to give my best for the last performance as a j2 of njchoir. Thank you, sopranoes, and also jiayun. i owe you once.

It was quite a pain to be unable to speak properly for the next few days. To make up for my inadequacy of speech, my facial expressions and hand gestures have to be exaggerated many times, making me behave like an idiot. Anyway i felt quite loved and touched by those well-wishers who enquire me about my health, and some who made my inadequacy of speech more endurable by cheering me up and becoming my 代言人。 Haha many thanks.

Fri: Aurora CO/GZ concert. (I m glad the performance doesnt require any vocals :p) It was a tiring day, with all those carrying of instruments up and down the stairs, and even in the rain. Nevetheless it was pretty enjoyable, esp photo taking! As i was performing i became increasingly aware tt this IS my final official performance onstage as a school student, from p3 to j2. Though i hv been complaining about wanting to step down, i felt weird now...like i m gg to miss smth fun in sch life, which makes sch life endurable or even enjoyable. i guess this feeling will become more pronounce for the following weeks, when i start to become a full-time mugger. however, i think i really need to start to work hard...i m really lagging behind.

On the final note, i wanna thank all those ppl who came and supported on fri, and of cuz those chos and flowers! so pretty! :D

2007-06-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hiatus.

2007-05-29T00:11:00.000+08:00

"Like little carbon seeds
Refuse to turn to dust
Under high temperature and pressure
Shedding itself, that thin layer of black
A crystalline diamond
With scintillating brilliance

Like a warm summer breeze
Whispers a familiar dream
A euphonious melody
Carrying angels in its very breath
What is the difference now
Between heaven and earth

Like a Victoria’s ****** ***
Of fine calibre and support
So close to the heart
A touch of femininity
To accentuate the melodious body
Radiating inner beauty

Like pieces of jigsaw
Each of a different colour
A tint of chocolate, a hue of cream
Only when pieced together
A magnificent panorama
Pastel skies engulf a sea of cerulean blue

We are the voice in you
Singing that simple song of love
Rejoice!"

-The Sopranos, Claudia Leung

Its such a nice poem. a pity it could not be put in the programme bklet, so i posted it here.
2 more days to cantabile. my schwork is still left piling.

joke of the day: for choir election interviews today, a certain junior claims tt he nv prepare the interview, but tucks in his pe tee into his grey pants and says the word "revolutionalise".

ouch. my heart aches.

2007-05-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

Last wk FINALLY marks the end of the monstrous term 2, but thankfully, with gd returns :D makes me think taking all the pressure is all worth it. i dun mind gg thru it again manz :D
aft weeks of acumulated tiredness, last wk i was so tired tt focusing in class or even staring at something hurts.
haha but i guess it will get more stressful towards A's. a different type of stress, esp now i hv awful lot to catch up aft cantabile.

A ccappella singing is addictive!!!! Whee~ entitled and (God knows wad name, maybe YIN?) rox! Hope to pass thru auditions tmr.

Phantom's piano is so easy (my foot!) hope wun screw it.

2007-05-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

In front of my eyes, i see ppl, one by one, turning into full-time muggers.
While i myself wun become one until july. i feel tt i m losing out on smth.

RAAAAH.

13 more days to cantabile. Put up a gd job manz :)
Gonna work on my memory skills to memorise scores by nx tue.

2007-05-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

The journey for nj choir has definitely not been a smooth one. In briefly these few months, we have gone thru extremes...the drastic ups and downs in not juz our performance but also our morale, spirit etc. It has been a journey of challenges, not juz technical and musical challenges, but most importantly, emotional and mental challenges, coupled with the fact that competition between jc choirs hv been very tough. Thus facing constant pressure from other choirs become quite inevitable.

Within these months, many of our morales hv been shaken badly before, our spirits had reached a all-time low. However we managed stay firm, and its the notion tt each of us are trying hard to improve constantly really touches me. For today, though the nervousness in our hearts is hard to contain, we managed to transfrom tt nervousness into excitement, to throw in all tt we hv for a fabulous and impressive performance that we know we will not regret even when we juz stepped down from the stage. I was particularly worried about my dear section, but they proved tt my worries were unneccessary; their first 4 notes were simply clear and bright. and not juz tt...the rest of the performance was smoothly delivered. of cuz that applies to the rest of the choir too, it was really much better than i expected. For everything performance onstage, u might think tt my attitude is abit 消极 but i always expect some room left for imperfections, and this is the first time i realised i shouldnt hv expected too much room for imperfections. Why cant the best of us be delivered onstage? :)

i say with regrets i have not been with most of nj choir to wait for results in school. it mus hv been a great experience to be with the choir, exploding in happiness together when the gd news are announced. haha but being at the 现场 to listen to results is quite a different experience too. the 3 of us are sorta representative nj to cheer for our dear choir, smth tt we would love to do so.

i cant wait for friday when choir will stand in front of the school in assembly, bowing to the sch to the long-awaited line,

"Presenting to you, NJC choir- GOLD WITH HONOURS."

(back to reality tmr. the school work i hafta catch up are piling up)

2007-05-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

Juz now choir has been practising as usual, then towards the end of the prac ms lim asked us to sit down and say,

"3 days left to SYF".

The whole choir was stunned in silence for a few seconds. Perhaps we didnt realise how near issit to syf before that? We have been working towards syf since last yr when we start choosing our songs, where we eliminate a few songs here and there (Double double toil and trouble, jacoob bin, Asayuani, ave maris stella etc.)and finally settling on Sanctus and Kodomo. And these few months we have been working very very hard on these songs and of cuz Song Without Words, in a way tt we become numb (pardon me if i m wrong) and did not realise that THE day is soo near. The day, 8th may 07, that we hv been working so hard towards, many late nights out in sch, many falling sick, many months of scores mugging, many tutorials and tests forgone for choir pracs.

And yes, its from now on up to 8 may 07, 10.15am, the moment when we got down VCH stage tt we can determine wad will we be getting. We cannot do anything else to change it aft that moment. So, we make sure we do not regret 3 yrs later that we didnt put in our best for this day, 3 months later or even 3 days later. For many its the last SYF of our life that we are participating as a school. Personally, its my 7th syf. Lemme see:

1st syf-p3 choir: ilver
2nd-p5 choir: silver
3rd-sec 2 guzheng: gold
4th- 21 april 05, sec 4 chinese orchestra: gold with honours
5th- 26 april 05, sec 4 guzheng: gold
6th- 24 april 07, j2 guzheng: gold with honours
7th- 8 may 07, j2 choir : _____________?

The 7th and the last syf of my life, and its also the one i put in the most blood and sweat 血汗
in. I definitely will not wan to hv a single regret after this. I wan to enjoy the moment on the syf stage, like how i hv enjoyed for the past few syfs. Juz take this last plunge and we will deliver our best and impress the judges. NJ CHOIR!!!!!!!!

As the saying goes, "I am under so much pressure that i must have been a diamond now."
We will shine as a diamond together :)

"A child in the sky is a glittering star
A child on the earth is a mushroom
A child in the water is a dew drop
A child in the forest is a young tree

Children have a story grown-ups do not know.

Timidly a small squirrel looks you up
Boldly a kitten licks you
Playfully a puppy scratches you
Busily a cub sniffs you around.

Children live in a world grown-ups do not know
More fierecly than grown-ups
Children get scared, doubt, get delighted, fight!
And everyday, a child departs on a journey and
an adventure as everything is filled with such amusement."

-Kodomo by Ko Matsushita

2007-04-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!
so relieved. was worried tt i screw njgz up.

i rmb every syf onstage moments since sec 4. of cuz ytd's too. i guess the moments will stay with me forever.

I heard many times from the cca teachers-in-charge tt ppl from intensive ccas muz learn to manage and balance studies and CCAs well. But no matter how balance it, u will nv be the same as those ppl from non-intensive CCAs, esp for this period. Ur studies will suffer. By loads. Even those smart ones will not do as well as if they hv the time to mug. I guess the only way to balance studies perfectly is to either totally hv NO LIFE or sleep even lesser to make up for time then suffer in health, or both. even thats not enough, if ur ccas are hiong enough.
i was thinking to myself today: issit all worth it? to forfeit ur studies for tt few awards? of cuz we will get more than tt few awards from all the pracs, all the music-making, impt lessons we acquired during CCAs, friendships etc. Some may say we can all catch up eventually after we step down, but how can we be sure to catch up everything tt we missed for many months, when others would hv moved on.

Haha sry if i sound i a little agitated now, cuz i happen to be one of the very few laggest girl in cls. maybe not juz girls, its everyone. i m struggling with work now, esp now when i gg to miss 1 wk's worth of lessons due to SYFs (i alr missed 2 days) the girls in my cls are rather ahead of time. hope to spend tmr's half day meaningfully. blah.

END OF NAPFA

2007-04-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

Finally, today marks the end of napfa in my ENTIRE LIFE.

woohoo~ somebody pops the champagne pls. No more PTs during PE and
FREE GAMES!!!!!!

Personally i felt this is the slackest and the most dishonest napfa i ever taken, with loads of cheating, with the aid of the teachers :p so even if i hv best personally records, i shouldnt be feeling proud bah.

I cant believe it, 3 more days to guzheng SYF!!!! Time flies~ i bet in no time at all it will soon be choir's turn. i got the shock of my life to receive that msg tt today choir prac was cancelled. really i think i m used to the fact theres always smth related to choir everyday until i didnt feel comfortable when a prac is cancelled. haha in a way its gd, cuz i get to focused on gz until tue, the big day. i gonna miss so much lsns, for nx mon and tue. After nx tue it will be a burden lessened.
Cant wait, but also dun wan it to happen so soon. I hv some of my parts changed again today! So last min sia.

Felt so sorry to choir singing group 3 for not being able to sing with u guys today :(

Changed the chinese words cuz i think they are the cause of the long time of loading.

RAAAAH i m totally drained now, the tiredness accumulated over these 2 wks. I think i gonna slp soon, and ABSOLUTELY NOTHING is gg to wake me up tmr. nth at all.

Be strong, keep going.

randomness

2007-04-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Woo! juz uploaded photos for the NE photo competition. Though the photo not very nice and i anyhow take de, i still quite proud of it, dunno why also :p

Hmm i realise tt having eye bags is not a total bad thing aft all, cuz if u hv eye bags aft days of little slp, this probably means tt u are healthy and not gg to fall sick. Cuz 2 wks ago i had little slp and no eye bags, but fell sick. Hopefully now tt i got huge eye bags, i wun fall sick. raaah i m rambling.

Tmr choir prac starts at 6.15 AM. woohoo reaching home late and gg sch early ROX sia

2007-04-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

More talks on syfs this wk. i guess as wks fly pass, more CCAs would hv gotten their GWHs, giving pressure cum motivation to ccas with later syf dates, i.e. CHOIR.

Nowadays, i feel tt my energy level is getting low. i m becoming quite antisocial, i realise. Previously when i will mix around with frens to chit chat and joke about, now i will keep slightly more to my myself and keep quiet. i tend to be less cheerful recently, as feedback by some ppl.

Why.

I hope its because of the daily drillings and vocal trgs of choir small grps and sectionals tt i hv been doing (i been reaching sch at 6.30am for small grps twice this wk) and also the guzheng pracs i will hv on non-choir days tt i spent effort and energy in, tt i juz cannot seem to find enough energy for other stuff, coupled with the fact of lack of slp. i think this will juz continue on, until i become severely antisocial. i'm sorry if i appear to u very dao or easily irritated this and nx month, i apologise now first. I hope i will return back to normal aft all these.

10 more days to guzheng syf!!! Oh my God. i really hope i dont let guzheng down, cuz i really miss quite alot of guzheng pracs due to choir.

meanwhile, i can feel tt ppl are really getting more serious about choir, such as sops. Eg during sectionals i can see tt ppl are trying hard to improve themselves. every1 is feeling the pressure to improve. i m really touched by tt effort. Lets continue to chiong hard k ppl :)

Replies to tags:
luan, sumin, xian: thanks! :) jiayou for choir too
jingz: i still uncertain of the length i shud cut. haha
gab: i think so too. i think now i spread the germs to more ppl liao. haha!
visitor: u stil hven gimme more clues. are u from choir?
Lin lao shi, anonymous: thanks for the concern :D

Loads of crap

2007-04-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

finally. its my turn to fall sick.
flu + fever + sorethroat
i ve been anticipating it.

In a way, its a blessing in disguise cuz it almost certainly means tt i wun be sick near syf.
The bad thing is i spent my long wkend falling sick. nv enjoy it enough. and no matter how much cough syrup i drink or panadol i swallow or how long i slept its not improving.
So i probably wun be taking pe or singing in choir nx wk, unless miracle happens during the night and i m cured tmr morning.

Choir and guzheng pracs are getting more and more intense. i m not complaining. i really enjoy the time spent during CCAs making music, its really fun. Theres juz one factor tt i dislike.

Studies.

I hate having to balance studies and ccas, but tts wad i hv to learn to master for this term. With SYFs approaching and ccas becoming more hiong, my only hope is tt the workload for academics is gg to be lesser, so tt i can focus more on CCAs.

Of cuz, there is not gg to happen.
In fact it will only become worse too, since we got to finish the syllabus by end of term2 for CT2s.
DEADLINES. sch life is full of deadlines. Wads all about sch life is keeping them. Sighz

On a lighter note, i got a new k610i as my belated bday pressie from daddy! though its quite cheap, haha. u may wonder y i keep changing phones, but also y all lousy ones. haha i dunno too. i hoped i chose the right phone this time round.

My mum is pissed off with my almost waist-length hair for some reasons and is pestering me to cut daily. i think one of these days i might juz cut to stop her from pestering? lol.

2007-04-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

once again, my blog's getting dead.
pls do not blame me, i use the pc almost like twice a week even since term2 started. sometimes even less than tt when my bro use the modem to do his schwk.
i wonder if my blogskin is still takin ages to load. it seems tt less ppl frequent my blog now. (or maybe frequent my tag?) haha.

Nowadays all my conversations seems to be revolving around CCAs. "CCAs, SYFs, CCAs, SYFs, CCAs, SYFs..." it seems to be the hottest topic now. it appears tt i never spent more than 9 hours at home for wkdays. My house is like functioning as a hotel, used for sleeping and bathing nia. but nevetheless this is the hardest i personally have ever tried for SYF. I totally regretted not going for vjc choral workshop. I felt like i missed out going thru an impt process with nj choir. Choir seems to be doing fine all along until u go deep down into the details of the songs, and tts when all our problems are magnified to several times. And thats wad we got to work on before we can obtain tt GOLD WITH HONOURS. I really learnt alot in choir, i discovered so much more about music, voice production, pitching and chording. And not only i need to help sops in their pitching and voice projection, i need to improve myself too, to blend with the rest and to improve on breathing and support. i should hv started doing these stuff ages ago but i started recently. Lets hope theres still enough time to improve ourselves. Lets live out the standard of SUPERANOS~

GOGOGOGOGO NJ CHOIR! 1 month more to success :D

Men cannot discover new oceans until they have the courage to lose sight of the shore.

2007-03-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

This is my bday cake 7 years ago.

And this is 7 years after~ haha thanks to my family who celebrated wif me like 1 hr b4 my bday is over. :D

THanks to the 21 ppl for smsing bday wishes! thanks for remembering :)

And also my dear cls 06s12, for signing the bday card beautifully made by claud!

And the 6 other persons who wrote me bday card. i think the cards are really nice!!

Thursday was choir orientation. to be honest i was initially rather sad when theres choir suddenly. But i nv regret gg for orientation at all! thanks for the many bday songs sang! my ears were super red. i nv had so many bday songs sang in my life b4 on a single day, i m really grateful XD

Went to curry wok aft choir, where xiang and deb juz disappear for 1/2 hr. haha then appear with a ABSOLUTELY delicious cake! i think its like 99% icecream, 1% cake. really touched~ cant thank u guys enough. argh i dun hv the pict. and luckily i gave the curry wok uncle a piece of cake, who later treated me to the meal.

moral of story: go to curry wok on ur bday :P

This wk marks the beginning of a monstrous term, probably the most hectic in my entire sch life of 12 yrs. i really hope i will hv both the physical and mental strength to pull thru.

A million thanks to my frens once agn.

2007-03-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

"You've got to sing like you dont need the money-
Love like you'll never get hurt-
You've got to dance like nobody's watching-
It's got to come from the heart if you want it to work."

-Susana Clark and Richard Leigh

Guess i m abit too old to throw childish tantrums at my age. Pretty ashamed of myself.
I should accept wad i deserve, and take life as it is.
Time to grow.

2007-03-16T11:01:00.000+08:00

yay finally know how to do my digi cam.

Felt so happy tt decided to post some random photos here:

Didnt know i did such a funny thing when i was young.

This road in Genting is definitely windy enough to do drifting 飘逸 here.

A family portrait taken in Genting

2007-03-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

my tagboard is gone! i din even know if any1 leave a tag for my last entry...hope it returns soon. if a wk ltr it doesnt reappear i chnging to another one. any reliable tagboard tt i can use?

ytd went shopping with xiu and jing aft cip at orchard and then bp plaza. wow met the most 热心 salegirl i ever seen! 7.36pm, 2007 march 14th at takashimaya departmental store lvl 4 (the counter behind the rebook displays), a salegirl returned a $10 note which was left on the counter to me, when i was alr a distance away from the counter, and somemore aft a few min when she is done with some customers. At the moment she walked away from her counter to pass to me, i was very touched. I mean most salesgirls will juz forget it and even keep the note. wah i was so impressed by her integrity. Immediately i thot of writing a compliment letter, where previously i thot compliment letters are stupid, esp when i was writing the chinese 公函. somemore aftwards when we wanted to buy another item, we are unable to purchase it cuz of some lame reasons such as the inability to remove the price tags from the thingy. we waited for like 10 min, then another salegirl said we cannot buy and they will only refund us the brand VOUCHER. totally crap! we are prepared to argue liao. but the kind salegirl went to investigate and finally we got back our refund in CASH. wow. 2 compliment letters for her! haha. i got xiu to note down her name for me. should i email or type then send? i also dunno wads taka's address haha. i shall email bah :)

2007-03-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

Whoa smth stupid happened today.
my bro took my contact lenses by mistake this morning and didnt realise tt the "feel" of the lenses or even the degrees is not his and juz wore it out the whole day.
and i was searching for my contact lenses the whole morning b4 choir lah! he didnt even apologise when i called him.

eek now my lenses got his fluid, oil glands, proteins etc.
disgusting. Gonna clean super hard later.

2007-03-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

SHOCKING personality test results esp. bar owner, cheer leader.

Your Career Personality: Independent, People-Oriented, and Fun

Your Ideal Careers:

Bar owner

Bartender

Cheerleader

Event promoter

Flight attendant

Marketing consultant

Motivational speaker

Personal trainer

Real estate agent

Talk show host

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

2007-03-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

waaaah! i was wondering ytd how come aft a whole morning of 3.6km run and cheering, plus about 2 plus hrs of bball playing aft choir under the hot sun doesnt burn my skin, until i looked into the mirror aft bathing and realised how red my face was.

and this morning when i wake up my legs cannot move o.O

i think after all the cny goodies and the few weeks of mugging (and stoning) i hv put on weight and become super unfit, so now i m suffering muscle-ache. this is jus my desserts bah, my parents ask me to go jog i dun wan. even my 6-pecs area (like i hv liddat) aching. abit weird for my tummy muscles to hurt aft running. is tt normal huh? hmm maybe i should exercise more during the march hols (issit even a hol?) to lose some weight before i m a yr older.

Super long nv touch piano. i shall go and touch it now.

2007-03-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

FINALLY its over. Very jia lat esp the econs and physics. I m willing to bet i sure cannot reach my target de.

Theres still skill A chem spa tmr but i m obviously already in post exam mood. i think i ve been in post exam mood since the gp paper. Haha tts the problem with me. I would always hv this post exam mood during exams or even before the exams start.
Cuz to me, exams starting = exams ending!!! woohoo~
And no matter how badly i think i did, i would still enjoy myself to reward myself for muggin and finishing the papers :) Haha not a very gd attitude but i dont care. Its only when i got back my papers then i start to feel totally suicidal. jk. I think its quite a bad idea to put a GCE A' LEVELS chem spa aft a week of sch exams, cuz ppl like me wun hv the mood. Maybe its only me, haha. Oh wells.

2007-03-04T01:54:00.000+08:00

Judging from the quantity and quality of muggin these few days, i totally regret setting my target for the CT 1s as ABCCC. haiz

2007-02-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

I realised i have a rather serious short-coming: over-frankness. not tt i didnt know all along, recently i think it's really quite serious.

I should seize the opportunity of this CNY to make another new year resolution for 2007:
think, before i speak.

I think i have offended countless ppl for all my life cuz of my brainless speech. RAAAH. i nv care about how loud m i speaking, who is around and how ppl will feel. For now I feel very guilty and i m truly apologetic to everyone tt i hv offended before. Pls forgive me ppl, i will try hard to change.

6 days to CTs. Time to mug.

一点点痛的感觉
加上一点我对你的思念
承诺不算太遥远
遥远只剩一瞬间

一步步靠近终点
再差一步我们踏上永远
谎言让人太陶醉
陶醉在你给的世界

我不想不愿不去承认我的执著
怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留
是爱伤害了彼此的自由
你不看不听不说为什麽要离开我
我不哭不笑只剩下沉默
带著我的骄傲高飞远走

紧握过的双手拥,
抱过的温柔
所有的对错跟着脚步你一定带走

2007-02-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

FINALLY able to log in for the 2nd time. wow i juz finish bai-nianing my relatives, and of cuz nv mug anything at all. my complex no is still left undone. hope bekbek will be in a cny mood and wun check one-by-one and ask me to stay back HAHA. maybe i shud juz do one qn to appease him.

Dunno y this new year my relatives start to black-jack alot. previous yrs only gamble for one day nia. but of cuz i lose quite alot. not alot in monetary terms, but to think i gamble like only 10 cents each time and can still lose so much....all cuz of being the dealer for a few times. i refuse to be the dealer anymore!!! on the whole the new year seems quite mundanary(is there such word?), doing the same old stuff every yr...and as usual i ate so much goodies tt other being growing fat, pimples start to pop out liao~ i rmb i was fattest in my whole life last yr aft cny hols...very near to 50kg(considering my height u know)...now i refuse to step on weighing scale. now got a huge and revolting RED pimple on my nose. hmm y do i sound so bimbo?

throughout the cny hols i was feeling slight guilt. cuz CTs are here in no time and i m still enjoying myself. i m sure gg to fulfil my targets for first CTs manz! and cca refuses to stop leh. haiz my bro is gg to use the modem now so i guess its time for me to do complex no. cya ppl

2007-02-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

first time using this new blogger thingy. dun really see any diff except tt its v difficult to log in and i always get kicked out.

This is quite an eventful week. firstly on mon aft PE i was feeling very faint and my clsmates said i looked very pale. The only time i felt like this before was in P6, also aft PE. Anyway aft sham poured cold water over me i felt much better, though my shorts was wet for tt whole day *eeek* Juz a small matter but i really hoped tt wun happen again.

As for choir on tue and wed, the whole atmosphere was just as intense as the whole of last wk, in which something really quite sad for me happens. alot of reflection was done, but the fundamental problem is still not resolved. sometimes on the surface things seem to be changing for the better, but its not true. problems resurface from time to time. i think being in choir really taught me alot of stuff. i nv regret being in choir, despite the constant lack of sleep i m suffering and also the lack of mugging. and to suffer bad hair days almost everyday cuz i reach home late, wash my hair late and nv allow it to dry completely then go to sleep. i learnt alot of lessons. juz hoping that out of all these intense practices we can emerge victorious in the end.

stayed at su min's houe for practising talenttime. quite fun to spend the nights with the girls, though spending the nx day walking arnd in sch like a zombie due to the slplessness. maybe we should hv random stayovers nx time, even for muggin or stuff. it might juz turn out quite productive. and i actually dropped from the bed! whoa i so old alr this kinda stuff still can happen. wonder if sumin actually kicked me :p lucky nv squashed bifang, whom mattress i landed on. aiya nx time got this kinda of stayover i should juz slp on the floor, before any accident happened.

Fri's math test is totally disgusting. its the first time i m so ill-prepared for a test. i only started studying for it on fri morn on the bus, somemore got morn singing. i can tell its not a difficult test but i juz forgt how to do all the integrations and DE. Mr bek is gg to see the very WIDE range of marks my cls get, me contributing to the bottom and some math geniuses in my cls getting full marks, i predict. Well while hoping tt sacrificing math test might be all worthwhile, i was disappointed again. Dont be mistaken i m not blaming anyone at all. i think its time to take some actions. Anyway, congratzz for all winners on fri :)

Somehow things seem to turn out better today in choral workshop, though there are still alot of imperfection. Lets hope for the better next week.

Time to catch up on sleep.

2007-01-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY my blog is rotting!!!

So year 2007 has passed by for 21 days. 21 days without excitement. i guess tt will be the way until after A's, which is smth like 300+ days later. quite unbearable isnt it?

I realised i m beginning to be quite nonchalent to certain stuff. It was some ppl who made me realise tt i m becoming liddat. Previously i hope i can be more nonchalent, but now i think i overshot. Hmm wads happening to me? if i continue liddat i will hafta face consequences eventually.

Theres so many ppl getting sick nowadays. Blame it on workload or the trashy weather? Everyday i go sch, there will always be frens who's sick, whether in cls or cca. I got a feeling one of these days i will juz fall sick too. Better hope not. Esp in the next few mths, which will really be a test of my physical and mental strength. i really hope i wun fall sick!

Dunno how come i crap so much. Anyway i juz went to watch project superstar the final 2. quite disppointing, they only sang so little. most of the time they were promoting SK2 pdts, which is rather lame. Anyway i think diya looked prettier in real life.

Abit late for new year resolutions right? Now i m gg to make some:

1)Do my best in whatever i do
2)Greater time management!!! i nid alot of tt in the next few mths. so tt i wun lag in studies ever again
3)Improve my handwritting
4)Stay happy despite stress

Tts about it. Take care ppl :)

2006-12-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

"Christmas is coming, the geese are getting fat,
Please to put a penny in the old man's hat.

If you haven't got a penny, a ha'p'ny will do,
A ha'p'ny will do, a ha'p'ny wil do!
But a penny's better,
A penny or two are better, or three! or four!

Christmas is coming, the geese are getting fat,
Please to put a penny in the old man's hat
If you haven't got a penny, a ha'p'ny will do,
If you haven't got a ha'p'ny, a farthing will do,
If you haven't got a farthing, GOLD BLESS YOU!

God bless the master of this house, likewise the mistress too,
And all the little children that round the table grow.
Love and joy come to you, and to you your wassail too.
And we wish you, we wish you a Happy New Year,
And we wish you a Happy New Year!!!!"

-"Christmas is Coming" composer: Walford Dav

2006-12-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Opps i realised i forgot to thank those people who gave me encouragements, esp those who came to watch!!!! Claudia, Xiuhui, yifang, xiangting, chengluan and jiahao. 谢谢你们!

Juz watched the 全国华乐比赛 solo prize winners' concert (meaning the ppl who beaten me in the comps)
WHOA~ they were great. Suddenly i wished i could have put in more effort, or rather started preparing for the comp earlier. So that i can receive a prize from the minister today or even performed in the concert. haha abit "dream on" lah. The performance was inspiring. Looking at the ensemble competition today, i suddenly missed CO. Haha missed making music in an orchestra.
And i realised something: if u acquired a skill, u muz practise it regularly, or else u will lose it eventually. Which is quite sad. Now my piano sux. HAHA!

Went carolling ytd, and paiseh to say, i screwed my parts, haha. I only started bia-ing the xmas song scores aft my comp and got a certain song i hven learn b4 and dun even have the score, but we are supposed to sing it ytd! so i mouthed. this kinda feeling isnt gd cuz u always got the feeling tt someone in the audience noticed tt u are mouthing the wrong lyrics. lol better sing better nx time in the nx carolling.

Going for kbox the 3rd time this wk tmr. Haha but going with exclsmates! so excited to see them again!

paiseh ppl, i know my entries are quite boring.

by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARILYN! (16 dec)

2006-12-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

WOW!

如释重负的感觉真爽！

YAY. Though i didnt do well, but at least i tried almost my best. i dun dare to say i tried my best cuz i dunno wad my best REALLY is. i suppose the very best is unlimited?

Finally gg kbox tmr. I nid a break!

BUT WHAT ABOUT HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT? OMG :O

2006-12-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

Haiz.

Wanted to write alot of negative stuff but i backspaced everything.

Guess i am just feeling down now. But i refuse to post the negative stuff i wrote cuz they will exaggerate my feelings by many times and will leave the ppl who read my blog feeling awkward and weird. i guess aft a few days i will probably (and hopefully) forget everything and every negative thoughts will disappear, but the entry will still remain. so i dun wan to be reminded.

More stress coming in, excitement vanishing.

Haiz.

2006-12-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

Tag things [part 2] kena tagged by another person to do this -_-"

1. single, taken or crushing
TAKEN. by my lao po as mentioned b4.

2. Are you happy with your life now?
not perfect, but not bad lah.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
hmm not sure, depends.

4. Have you ever been heart broken?
Yes :'(

5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?
eeeehh, wad kind of circumstances are u referring to?

6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?
maybe.

7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?
eeeeeehhh.....tok about getting married with tt someone or wad? SIAO.

8. Do you want children?
maybe yes maybe not, see how first.

9. How many?
1 or 2. i not a sow.

10. Would you consider adoption?
okay lah, bt most prob no.

11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?
with sincerity. as long as i can feel it.

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
er how would i know.

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?
nope. how can it be called "love" if it can happen in such an instant? but maybe slight crushes yes.

14. Do you believe you can change someone?
yes. but its difficult.

15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
singapore? honeymoon maybe switzerland :p aiya juz some romantic place.

16. Do you give in easily when fighting?
depends on what and who.

17. Do you have feelings for anyone now?
haha. i love my family and friends cannot arh.

18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
nah.

19. Have you ever broken a heart?
........

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do?
FIGHT TO THE END. jkjk. Let fate decide who the guy like lah. will give them blessings if i m the unlucky one.

21. Are you missing anyone right now?
yes.

22. Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.
i m stopping this chain letter too. hehe.

Tag things....

2006-12-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

Tag things...

Layer ONE: On the Outside
Name: Lay Wang
Birth date: 22 March 1989. a GREAT day to rmb ;p
Current status: MARRIED. to anges wong li yu =D
Eye colour: black. wad else.
Hair colour: black. but wan to turn it HOT pink soon. JK.
Righty or lefty: righty
Zodiac sign: aries/snake

Layer TWO: On the Inside
Your heritage: wa si hokkien lang ;D
Your fears: fear itself. shall not elaborate more in case of hving heart attack in nx yr's april fool.
Your weaknesses: insensitive, too frank, impatience, irritating...aiya LOADS :(
Your perfect pizza: anything favour will do. i LUV pizzas man, except those fake ones tt are sold at $1.50 each at the bakery downstairs.

Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: "i wan to slp more! hmm wad did i dream of juz now?"
Your bedtime: aft 12am. been PARTYING out late. WOOHOO -_-" (diaozzzz)
Your most missed memory: kindergarten days :'( JK. happy memories tt i cant recall all.

Layer FOUR: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi? but not much diff also. dun really like both but i dun mind drinking.
Macdonalds or Burger King: BK? i guess its cuz i eat BK less often and the burgers are really KING sized.
Single or group dates: i hv no idea.
Adidas or Nike: no preference. i like anything as long as the design of tt particular product is nice, brand doesnt matter.
Lipton tea or Nestea: lipton? haha i dun find any diff also.
Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i LUV all chocs.
Cappucino or coffee: cappucino bah.

Layer FIVE: Do you
Smoke: never
Curse: no extreme ones b4

Layer SIX: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: no way. i drink a few drops of joly shady my whole face red le.
Gone to the mall: -_-"
Been on stage: i've been in performing arts CCAs all my life.
Eaten sushi: yes. i like raw salmon!
Dyed your hair: *shakes head*

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever
Played a stripping game: huh how to play
Changed who you were to fit in: no

Layer EIGHT
Age youre hoping to be married: eh. the usual age range.

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy
Best eye colour: green eyes are cool!(dun be mistaken i not toking about harry potter). aiya should be black eyes bah.
Best hair colour: depends on how the guy wears it
Short or long hair: depends on how the guy wears it. i m open

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: doing this wad else.
1 hour ago: eating KFC
1.5 hours ago: still eating KRC
1 month ago: 5th of nov ar...preparing PW?
1 year ago: slacking

Layer ELEVEN: Finish the Sentence
I love: sleeping, music, singing, mapling, slacking, chocs, haaden daz icecreams& gelatos...the list could go on.
I feel: tired. but abit nervous about tmr morning and this fri morning.
I hate: mugging. lizards. etc.
I hide: my personal secrets. duh.
I miss: sleeping. *yawns*

Layer TWELVE: Tag 5 people
Kena tagged by 2 persons to do this. So i shall stop this chain letter.

2006-11-30T19:12:00.000+08:00

What a stupid day today.

Ytd day night i was feeling quite excited while packing my bag for the choir camp today, though thrs certain unhappiness (b/n teacher and us) going on about the planning of the games (i in games com), making us feel abit unprepared. But still i was looking forward to today.

But something unexpected happened.
When i wake up my right eye feels heavy, and cannot open up. I looked into the mirror and......... HORRORS. my right eye looks like POS. Totally swollen and disgusting. Though i dun have pretty eyes at all, my left eye looked like heaven next to my right eye. juz my left eye is totally hell.

Went to see doc, he said theres a acne growing in the inner side of my eyelid. What a weird spot.
and what an untimely date.

But thankfully juz now according to jh and zr the games are so far going on well. they are the impromptu kings! later having night trail...hope everything turns out okay. I feel so sorry for not being thr to help u all. And SASA i m so paiseh for not being thr to perform with u all on the campfire night aft practising so much. I will try to come ASAP once my eye got better. Jiayou and have fun in choir camp!

2006-11-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚
因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱
我不需要谁温柔安抚请
放心我很快能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭
我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路
挡不住你追逐

不准哭
我更应该微笑
祝福祝你找到对的幸福

如果我消失不见你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊我很在乎
因为爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是我的最后让步

爱情就到这里结束
我们不得不
不得不屈服
只能笑~

不准哭
我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路
挡不住你追逐
不准哭我学不会微笑
祝福祝你找到
祝你找到对的幸福

-"不准哭 " 同恩

2006-11-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

This is the first time in my life doing such intensive CIP. Everyday 8am to 6pm......
Wanna faints.

Not like its meaningful or wad also. Typing, arranging, stapling, photocopying, distributing and printing documents, but also stoning, waiting for job requests, for things to be done. I think too many ppl are hired liao, 人浮于事。 Shall not touch on tt more since its so meaningless. Its a sucky feeling to be wearing court shoes from early morning to late evening. I wonder how i am gg to survive office work nx time when i work.

WHOA i juz cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wonder how m i going to get out of the house tmr.....

so short........................................

I meant the fringe, not all my hair.(hehe!) I still got long hair lah, i 不舍得 cut short so soon....my fringe is really really short now. The hairdresser at first cut not so short, then i say shorter......cuz i think cut shorter now no nid cut again so soon, save $$$...BUT muz face the consequence of ugly fringe now.

Cant wait for CIP to be over.

2006-11-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

LOTR freak

A very funny video. Even funnier if u watch the movies b4 and/or understand Hokkien.

2006-11-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

MUSCLE-ACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m aching all over....okay lah only waist down. All cuz of the 2nd link bridge 10km run. I totally refuse to get out of the house today. I even rejected an invitation from my mum to go shopping in robinson!! And i pangseh-ed bifang and feiqing for a bball game in the morning (still felt quite paiseh over it)

cuz my legs and waist ache terribly.

Now everything i do at turtle speed....i walk slowly, i stand up slowly, i sit down slowly, i bend down slowly, i straighten up slowly....i feel like an old person! OMG....WHERE DID MY 青春 WENT? I think cuz i dunno how to do cool down exercises aft running....but anw i m proud to say tt i COMPLETED 10km! of cuz i din run non-stop thru-out....i ran for 6km then i walked, then ran, then walked, then ran until finish. We started from west tuas road to the johor-s'pore boundary at the 2nd link bridge then U turn back. Guess my timing? 1h 1min 30sec. I not sure whether accurate anotz, i saw the reading from a huge timer placed at the finishing line. But seriously this run tested my perservance greatly...the path seems nv ending to me when i was jogging. Anyway the path isnt v gd lah...no nice scenery, no fresh air(cuz on the road)...but then come to think of it, whr else in singapore can u find a such perfect place for a long jog? Okay for pros out there u might think 10km is no kick to u...but i noob in running mah.

Tmr i m forced to walk out of the house for choir...hope i don hv to do some running like chasing for buses or trying to reach in time...so i should juz get out of my house earlier right?

2006-11-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

Juz bought a new phone.
Siemens SL75 (left) Lousy phone lah, only bought it cuz its so cheap. Looks ugly too.

My ideal phone is actually Samsung E900 (right)
Got touch pad! And it looks so elegant....

Lol aiya i should juz be happy with wad i have now. Somemore E900 so ex.

Ytd's kbox trip was the most FUN kbox trip I have ever been to as long as i can recall. It was totally high. Well, at least me and deb werent that high, its juz xianyong and zhirui.
Suddenly they can sing all the high notes for all the songs in the world (they even sang 我是一只小小小小鸟）and they sing kbox like singing in a solo concert liddat!
they keepon improvising lah. But i realise the vowels that they use for improvisation are all the same (eg. oooooooohhh.......Oh noooo.....oh yeah.....) And they keepon saying things like 大家好，这首歌是.....我的成名曲 or wadeva....madness. Me and deb laugh until stomachache. Not only we laugh, the kbox ushers also 偷笑-ing outside our room can. And we broke record....we sang 2 hrs beyond our supposedly ending time! So weird they nv chased us out.....

Not to mention last thur we finally got our final PW meeting/outing? Someone suddenly so nice during the outing lor. And xiu bought her digi cam....forgot to ask her whether its really delivered to her house anotz. And we got earphones!!! I lost count of how many pairs of earphones I have spoilt this yr alone. Can any1 pls tell me the instruction for proper maintanance of earphones? Jiazhen say cannot coil arnd mp3 cuz will repel and lose magnetism or smth liddat....i think its true, cuz coiling earphones arnd the mp3 is wad i always does, and this nv fails to spoil the earphones. So, i shall learn my lsn. experts out there, pls tell me wad to do k, thanks!

Sianz my parents signed the whole family up for some 10km jog at the 2nd bridge tmr. I have never ever ran 10km at one go in my life, the most 3 or 4 km only. Lets pray tt i dun faint or smth. But the jog sounds sianzzzzzzzz...i got nobody to jog with, my dad and bro too fast for me, my mum too slow. I also dunno how fast i should jog scared ltr too tired to finish the race.

Whoa crapped so much trash in this entry, so u ppl out there who read until here i really appreciate ur patience, hehe!

2006-11-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

tmr i getting back my pc! hehe. but actually this wk i dun feel bored cuz actually quite busy lah.

something happens on monday make me realise that either i got an unlikeable face or a face that looks gd to bully. Well having either is not gd. lucky i dun hafta pay a costly price for having such a face.

The Prestige is quite an amazing show. But i wonder how come its only PG leh. haha! next movie i wanna watch : THE GRUDGE 2!!!! yay. i think i can juz get a heart attack and die in the cinema, cuz too long nv watch horror movie le.

I finally be rid of Project Work on monday. A certain stupid member from the audience for my group's OP keep on stressing about my usage of broken english during Q and A :'( Hope that particular person stop spreading it around. whoa suddenly feel so relaxed aft finishing op. And the assessor refuse to tou4 lu4 our results!!! So muz wait till nx yr..........Lets not think about tt now. Jiayou for the rest who are having tmr or fri!!! perservere!

After watching a teacher's students' piano concert ytd night (i was there to support my friend) i suddenly realised how come like so many ppl i know who plays piano are under the same piano teacher. Suddenly got inspiration to pract piano again and continue to get LTCL cert. but after my guzheng competition first. Anyway the concert took place in the same venue where i will be having my gz competition. Wow freaky place.

Yay tmr finally having our awaited final pw mtg...to celebrate the end of PW! Hope it will be fun....and shopping for earphones and CDs....really cheap CDs. I think the cheapest available in singapore nx to getting it from the warehouse. In outram park area there. Very long nv go le, hope the shop still opened. Anyway hu knows sale of CDs at below $5 pls lemme know :p

Haiz can i hv some excitement in my life? not stress, but excitement u know.

2006-11-05T16:52:00.000+08:00

so long nv update liao (almost a mth) i bet nobody comes here anymore :'(

I m soooooooooooooo depressed. MY PC is OFFICIALLY DEAD.
haiz that was since monday, so i already tolerated a wk of being PC-less!!!!

I totally hv no life now. cuz to me, no pc =no life.
not really lah. But i m so bored at home.

Guess wad? my pc have been sent for repair ytd, and the fella say it will hafta take ANOTHER WEEK. so i can only start hving life again NEXT SAT. how am i to survive one more wk? now using bro's laptop. but can only use for v few times and v short while cuz he returns home late and he nid to use too. Somebody pls ask me out for wadeva activities eg. kbox, shopping, movies... as long as it dint clash with choir and gz lsn. Dont really feel at staying at home and stone, but i think i hven been practising enough gz. guzheng is a great instru and its fun to play, but it gets a little taxing, boring and stressful aft a while if u keepon bia-ing the same old pieces for competition. and kena scolded for not performing up to standard.

Tmr marks the end of PW. it's the Oral Presentation. I think I shouldnt prac too much, i think its regressing abit now. May God bless us manz. Jiayou NJ092!!! Deliver a smooth job tmr and lets party!

(Many ppl's tagboard is down. Feel like putting mine on to show off :p jkjk)

2006-10-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today's a ccapella so fulfilling! Haha finally came tog to practise as a whole group! abit mistakes here and there for my arrangement skills....but will try to improve de! shall try to arrange more songs if the 一比一 cheng gong! yay. Jiayou every1! show ppl wad girl power is :p

Whoa i think my pw grp quite lagging.....other grps in my cls hv finished their ppt slides can. Abit worried....but thinking of going to the nature sites to take photos sound quite fun! long time nv visit bukit timah hill...i used to go there often during my childhood days to exercise with my family....so got some memories there. And frequently pei hwa or nanyang sch camps will go there hiking...

I wonder why we can only get our results back on nx mon? Its such a GREAT inconvinence....to both students and teachers! Cuz students wil be so worried about their results, and will in turn bug the teachers to reveal the individual's results...and the teachers will all refuse, cuz if they reveal one's results the rest will come flying to the teacher like pest liddat to bug him or her for their results too! Like today aft physics lsn a few of us bugged mr ong....but he said nth much....keepon saying we did "okay"....."okay" "okay" "okay"......i don like this word. it can be defined so broadly! We wonder why cant we juz be more open and transparent(remind me of gd governing in Social studies. ARGH) I really hope i can juz improve from common tests...cuz i din really spend effort in mugging for promos...even if i can not get v gd results i think i deserve it.

Tmr is O' lvl biology practical. i think its the start of O's tmr bah, i can still rmb bio pract is the first written O's paper. Juz now my cousin asked me for some tips and i realise couldnt say alot, cuz i CLEAR FORGOTTEN O's stuff. yeah. tts how heavy jc workload is. My bio stuff all return to bio teacher le. So JIAYOU FOR O's BAH SEC 4s! Dont be distracted by those who hv finished exams....(eg the IPs ppl).....i still rmb how the IPs were enjoying their hols while the mainstream like us were still mugging hard last yr in ny (no offence at all k). Oh yes i rmb how poor things the 1st shift ppl have to be locked up for so long in the LT or wadeva aft their practical exams to wait the rest of the shifts(all the way up to 4th shift) to finish their practical exams before they can breathe the free air again. And its hard to concentrate on mugging in the LT when so many ppl are locked up in the same room with no food, no water, no connection with outside world(actually got toilet break i rmb)....and ppl wil be chit chatting so loudly instead of mugging. Haha! The old memories of secondary sch days. Today me and jj were toking about our old girls sch days...about some of the activities our sch force us to do.... haha! come to think of it, i miss those days.

Whoa today we officially started lessons again aft promos. We began on chem alkenes and started on new chem lecture topcis. I realise i forgotten some of my chem stuff liao and totally hv no mood at all to do the tutorial questions. I mean, who will be in the mood? Those h3 students alr starting some work le. haha smart ppl manz. Maybe aft getting my promos results i shall be awaken and shall be more in the mood to get back to mugging. My chem and physics mcq results all below avg of the lvl and cls. why leh

2006-10-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

Lol dunno how come my blog got some weird music playing previously. Haha now the 雨樱花 is BACK! I know lah I use this song for so long u all might be sian alr, but too bad i m not bored yet...okay lah i know u all can always dont come my blog if u are bored of this song :(

Games day was on mon! omg i kena sunburnt again....but everytime i get sunburnt no-one can tell, cuz i will cover my face with layers and layers of hazeline moisturising cream...i really don wanna spoil my face or see my face shedding skin like snake liddat. And now i will look into the mirror seeing a more tanned me. But like nobody can tell liddat. Anyway we got our champion for netball! I got very very minor contribution to the solaris team only lah...and also kena knocked by stan during freezbie(jkjk, it was an pure accident)

Tmr no sch....dunno how come suddenly so free tmr. At first this wk is supposed to hv choir everyday, then in the end turn out only 2 days....not including open day itself lah. So i going SHOPPING with ziyu finally! YAYAYAYYAYAYAY....wanna buy clothes! haha i fulfilled two out of the want-to-do list in my previous entries. went kbox on mon and finally going shopping tmr! of cuz i will do more during the hols....and maybe do more aft getting promos results...(cuz wanna 发泄 aft getting bad results， not to celebrate) And ppl, pls go for nj open day on this sat...i know it crashes with vj open day...but pls come for nj's too! haha!

The op workshop today is boring...as boring as the first one. And once again i got nervous and toked too fast and eating my words up. Nid to buck up or else 害 the rest of my members. How to improve on public speaking? claudia, gimme a tips leh :P

p.s. for those who cant read the chinese words, right click, select encoding, select unicoding :)

2006-10-08T12:29:00.000+08:00

Now my turn to update ;p....haha i got no tagboard so nobody can bug me to update! So now promos is over...but now when i waste time whole day i still feel abit uncomfortable...maybe still not used to post exams feelings...maybe i alr start to hv post exams feelings during exams! haha i think this time exams i quite slack...later get back results i shall hv to face the consequences :(

Haiz why exams period got 2 of my long-awaited albums come out? FIR and Jay! i whole day listening to the albums...v hard to focus on mugging...but i think FIR album is quite gd! I luv yu ying hua....(its on this blog)...simply the best on the album(if u like fast songs). Slow song i think juan lian is gd. Cant wait to go kbox to sing! Mon!!!! And Jay album got breakthru! finally. i think mi die xiang quite nice leh. And the first and last track are the best i think...this album like got alot of rapping songs....i wanna learn ye de di qi zhang and ting mama de hua! but the raps v low........non female friendly.

Haiz these few days i been staying at home and mapling......not much activities yet, unless u consider burning up latterns....haha me and a few others aft playing with latterns on fri decided to burn all our latterns at the end tog....v hard to burn up the whole lattern lor! the fire always die away....haha v long nv play with fire le, except for the skill d spa where we are supposed to light flame...some ppl dunno how to use matchstick then juz fake values :p

hope nx wk theres more interesting activities coming up! wanna go kbox, SHOPPING, cycling, go movie marathorn, swimming, volleyball at sentosa, bball, and hv a successful a ccapella....and SLIM down. Need to exercise more liao. i m serious about slimming down this time, unlike other times where i say and nth done de. my target is 45kg or below(yes i m heavier than 45kg lah)...nid to go jogging!

2006-08-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!! Yo...after i think rather boring nj's teachers' day celebrations, we waited for the delayed pizza delivery. Well there was so few ppl left that a few of us ate quite alot to finish it. And after went back to NANYANG. Well nanyang is actually not as near to nj as u think like juz a few steps, when the side gate's locked....tts wad happened today. We have no choice but to walk a long way to main gate. And nanyang teachers' day sounds so fun by the noises the ny students made heard from nj! And it feels good to be playing volleyball in your old sch's hall again! esp with your ex clsmates! haha...and we visited a few teachers....they are all looking gd! Glad to see them again :)

Kbox was fun today! very high esp towards the end....when we sing all duets songs! Though v out of tune at times. Going tmr again. i must be mad

2006-08-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

雨樱花 -FIR
雨后落下一里的幽香
雄花掉落山底的伪装
落叶排成思念的形状
我唱着song 不去看

樱花飘落悲谷的悠雅
藏着一句说不出的话
窗外吹着屋里的牵挂
轻轻吹动我头发

初次的爱你
化自痛的伤
我不想抵抗
该要如何学会隐藏

傻傻的微笑表情却无法言语
偷偷的像是记忆里幸福的相机
静静的呼吸身边有你的空气
我还记得你说樱花很美丽

不愿意在今夜从你身边离去
不忘记写下樱花飘落的那场雨
不放弃心中刻下了永远爱你
你说我和你都为了此刻
着迷

2006-08-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

Wad a week! i was so busy that i hv no time to update event-by-event! Let me summarise here :p

On monday, i was lucky enough to kena the orange slip during chem lecture. Actually the chem lecturer had planted 3 orange slips under 3 seats in LT5 before the lecture so as to choose 3 persons to ans some lecture questions during lecture...so i was SHOCKED to see it under my seat! But lucky nobody own up that they hv the slips, so the orange slips thingy failed....phew~

Next up after school we had captain's ball tournament! Seriously i was so nervous...i hv NV played in a competitive game before! i wasnt even from a sports cca before...of cuz i wasnt supposed to play, i juz substituting sheaufong, who is sick....and the rest of the team, sasha, tong hern, alvin, shimeng and roy are so zai in sports, tt gave me even more pressure! scared i would do smth that drag the whole team down...but while playing the games, i became less nervous bcuz we nid to focus on the match itself...06S12 really rocked! we had our very tall captain shimeng who can catch any type of very high balls passed to him, excellent attackers sasha and alvin who are so gd and experienced in such ball games, and unbeatable defenders tong hern and roy...tong hern can jump so high lah and tt really helped us to save alot of potential goals. The scores are 15-2, (2nd match cant rmb score), 7-3, and 11-10! woohoo~we won every matches! poor sasha sprained her ankle during the 3rd match...but glad to see her being able to walk properly again these 2 days! She deserve the flowers we gave her cuz she really sacrificed for our cls! And not to mention the victory of the last game was totally SATISFYING! With marianne, jingan and pohswee joining the game, we beat the strong j2 team "prelims are coming". The game was rather dirty, mocks were spoken, pushes and fouls are committed...but nevertheless we let the results do the talking ^_^ it was really a close game.

Needless to say, after the cap ball games when i reached home i was totally not in the mood, physical and mental condition to mug for physics spa and math test which were taking place the next day(tue). So tuesday came and the start of the day wasnt a good one. Firstly we get scolded by cmy after morn assembly for not standing properly in line for morn assembly again. "brainless", "shamless", "no self-respect", "not proud of your cls, wan disband S12 issit"...seriously she's toking TRASH. She wanted us to hand in our reflections for not standing in line the next day but of cuz, nobody bothered. Due to the delay from the trashy scoldings, we were late for PE lsn, and guess wad becuz of being so late we were scolded by our pe teacher. That will make 2 scoldings one-after-another in a single morning.

The bad start of the day continued on to the rest of the day. woohoo the math test rocks my socks. Again i had this bad habit of spending too much time on the first few questions that i couldnt finish the paper. Not like if i were given all the time in the world i will know how to do the rest of the questions liddat. Not enough revision were done. Its like doing the common tests again, it was so demoralising. And the physics SPA(i guess its safe to tok about it now, everyone finished it today) it was the worst spa (including all the prac SPAs) i had ever done my life. The calculations are supposed to be the easiest skill in physics spa, yet i screwed it up....i don think my graph is more than half the graph paper, and guess wad my calculated uncertainty is? plus/minus 100! whoa sure die. Its all bcuz of me acting smart and tried to take log on both sides of the given equation to plot the lg f against lg L graph. It took me such a long time to calculate and complete the table (got 8 coloumns!) and after complete the table i realised i couldnt find g by using this graph! so i hurriedly did another table and rushed out the last part....heart attack again during SPA exam. haiz. Anw tue was everlyn's birthday, SO VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERLYN! wheee i got kisses from the bday girl! haha and congratz to CLAUDIA WHO FINISHED HER PIANO EXAM THAT DAY! yay!

And on wed, we had captains ball games again! And this time i was juz there to stand by for substitute so i was juz standing there being extra. Marianne, Sheau fong, stanley, alvin, shimeng, and yongjun was really cooled! They can co-operate so well with each other despite not playing tog before! Marianne is gd at throwing high balls to shimeng, sheau fong is pro in intercepting balls, stanley and yongjun are gd mid-fielders who are accurate in passing balls and marking ppl, and alvin who helped us to block off so many goals by opponents and also scoring so many goals at the same time! first match we drew cuz i think we were starting to get into the situation...but 2nd match we won a landslide victory of 15-6 to a strong ip team! But wad a pity we didnt get into the nx round cuz we havent won enough...cuz the ip team we won won the first team we drew with by 14 points....so we nid to at least win by a gap of 15 points....but anyway 06S12 had did our best and really enjoyed playing! 06S12 is a STRONG TEAM! S12 nv lost a single match at all, so S12 are the unbeatables ;p

Once again, i wasnt in the mood to mug for econs test when i reached home. So I slept early and woke up at 5 am on thur morn to read the notes...i was half sleeping and half reading, to such a point that i had to set my hp alarm to snooze at every 5 min interval so that juz in case i dozed off the alarm would ring to wake me up...cuz if i dont study i will really die. I thought the test was easier than i expected, but i tink i might hv written out of point...

And today friday, as usual i didnt complete physics and math tutorials and sat thru the tutorals without fully understanding wads gg on. Anw the our last choir prac before promos today really rocked! Ms lim (the conductor) was rather positive about sopranos' singing today! which is a very rare thing....even agnes, who knew ms lim since sec sch, said that she only saw ms lim being positive about sops only once before in her years with her. Woohoo this shows that sopranos can be GOOD. Sopranos, very good job for today's prac! We were more alert, flexible and responsive to the conducting today and our pitching have improved rather significantly. Keep up the good work sops! Lets work on more focus, techniques and support to bring our singing to greater heights! ROCK ON SOPRANOS AND NJ CHOIR!!!!! Lets mug for promos
for now. Looking forward to christmas carolling after promos :p And HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO TINGTING TOO! enjoy ur last few min of ur special day :p

Er did anyone understand the "read in english" joke on my previous entry? If you cant read the chinese words, juz left click to select encoding, then select unicode. haha juz in case u dunno :p

AAhh my hair is getting less and less straight, more and more wavy and even frizzy. The rebonding effect is really going downhill. Let me ask this rather bimbo question: should i rebond again or cut my hair? I think this is the point of my life where i got the longest length of hair, abit sad to cut it since i still haven achieve waist-long hair :p (OMG this last paragraph is highly bimbo)

2006-08-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

I haven touch my hmk through all the whole wkend and yet now i m wasting time here. Imagine my shock juz now when i see no other clsmates online! even those ppl that online whole day werent online! OMG...are they all mugging? goodness...i think i m getting more and more ill-disciplined. Let me see what i have done today....woke up gave tuition, played guzheng, piano, maple....no hmk done. It certainly seems that i m lousy in juggling skills. My academic is suffering. Honestly. I can go thru lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorials without really understanding wads gg on, copying notes on the screen or board blindly and mechanically. And when tutors approach near my desk during tutorials, i will desperately try to show them the minimal amount of tutorials i hv completed hastedly and hiding the fact that i hven done wad they expected us to hv finished. Wad kind of student i am? No brains, and yet no diligence, no attitude. Actually being too busy is not an excuse. Its not juz that i hv no time, but the fact is even when i have the time i won even think of using the time to mug. I would use the time to relax first. This sux. I better do smth with my time management during the 33-day CCA study break, or else, my promos will get it.

Is any1 free on 9 sep? i wanna date you...lol jk. interested in watching guzheng concert? haha.

Read this in English:

欧买大零！
买底儿，爱拉服油佛爱儿，
眯死油苏麻曲，爱旺特吐可死油，
爱你的油拜得累，爱旺特吐塌曲油，
哦！抗民被逼！可死眯！
塌眯！抗民！
(disclaimer: this is juz a joke, for entertainment's sake. Pls do not take it seriously.)

Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
And I know there’s just no use
When all your lies become your truths
and I don’t care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left with an empty plate
And you don’t care about it, yeah.
And I, I’ve given up this game
I’m leaving you with all the blame
cause I don’t care, yeah, yeah yeah

Do really you have everything you want?
You can't ever give something you ain't got
You can’t run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you`re happy now, yeah yeah
Come on tell it to my face or have i been erased,
are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I’ve had that all I can take
And I’m about to break
Cause I’m happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?

-Michelle Branch "Are you happy now?"

2006-08-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

Haha i changed my layout again...pls don say i m indecisive, this time round i hv no choice...i tried to auto play music in my blog, when i put the command in my template my rainbow picture will disappear, so i got fed up and changed the skin to this...haha and ppl hv commented tt this is nicer, so i decided to settle down with this, though i think after a few wks i will become fickle and change again ;p

Surprisingly, today's practice is not as demoralising as i thought i would be...we receive some encouragements! this shows that sopranos can be strong too! But still get scolded at some point lah.

This is a question i always wondered: wad makes a good song? According to a comment of a radio dj(cant rmb who), 2 different groups of ppl have differing views. The former would listen out for the melody, while the latter will be more concerned about lyrics. I think i definitely belong to the former and not only will i listen out for melody, i m concerned about the instrumentation of the song too. Cuz i think its the music that will capture my attention to a song first, and the lyrics take effort to be figured out, haha. I guess i m less of a language person. Wad about you ppl out there? which group u belong to?

Nx week is a crazy week. 3 tests! i think i will flank the tests, esp math. I dunno since when my math become my lousiest subj. I guess its cuz i nv do math tutorial and i always stone during math lectures. And my math tutor forced me to submit remedial hmk despite me not being in remedial...i was abit pissed lah, cuz i think the remedial practices somehow not v useful, and i will have to spend time doing it. haiz.

Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you, Yeah

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cause I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want
Doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up
You either got it or you don't

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cause I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cause you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

Everything in it's right time everything in its right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way, it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't'
Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendan

I'm single(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single(Right now)
That's how I wanna be.

-Natasha Beddingfield "Single"

2006-08-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday.
Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,
Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life
And start to try.
Cause it's your time,
Time to fly.
All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something, when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow.
And when you're down and feel alone,
And want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else.
In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday.
Fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away.
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life
And start to try, Start to fly.
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life
And start to try
cause it's your time
Time to fly.

-"Fly" Hilary Duff

2006-08-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

ytd got wad chem SPA...whoa sux. I completed the energy cycle within like 3 min? cuz i think i do v slow at the beginning, i began with weighing(oppsy m i revealing too much?) and when i started on my last expt, i turned arnd (i sat at first row) and see my whole cls alr sat down to write their report liao! whoa i quicky finished up the expt and chionged my report...halfway thru calculations jiazhen alr started washing up! stress stress! when i m chionging energy cycle jingjing and jiazhen both washing up, i almost had heartattack...then when time's up, my legs turned jelly and i couldnt stand up properly to wash my apparatus...i was so scared i couldnt finish! but thank God i did, but i no time to check my calculations and anw i think my final ans v far off...sighz so sad :( hope my energy cycle is correct.

Anyway i think i was discouraged and demoralised so many times that i think i getting immuned le. Haha i think thats the way life is lah. I juz somehow get less and less affected lor. And here comes the piano exam season again...2 gurls, marianne and claudia taking their grade 8 this wk and nx wk respectively! woohoo gogogogo! and many others in choir too. whoa i can rmb grade 8 is the most most most STRESSED exam lah, i was so scared at that time that i would fail...i m paiseh leh i m unable to provide help and advice for ur exams, cuz i forgot wads all the components liao...my exam happened 3 years ago and i dunno how to play scales le. oppsy. I juz hope my piano playing dont deterioate, cuz i think i gonna stop piano for 1 yr plus again. So, jiayou ppl! stay cool and look chio for the exam! God bless

2006-08-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

firstly, i wanna thank bifang for being so nice to accompany me to the ang mo kio ulu ulu industrial area on fri aftnn, although u were super tired haha. And lucky u know ang mo kia quite well, or else i will never make it back in time for choir if i go alone! haha thanks alot gurl! treat u to smth on our nx cup noodles club gathering :p and thanks to claudia too, who offered to go with me! :D

whoa the last choir prac on fri is quite "memorable". our discipline has gone down quite sharply, and this cannot continue. And the girls nid to be more brave and chiong as a section! We nid to stay strong, ppl.
Hmm initially i thot of alot of things to blog about but i m braindead once i start blogging. Hmm cant rmb wad i wanted to say. nvm nx time if i rmb i shall blog about them.

And yes, happy belated birthyday to alvin! cheer up :D hope to see u being urself again

Whoa, short fingers sux. Especially when u hv endless stretching of fingers to do when u are playing instruments. There's no end to it. It's tiring and irritating when it affects ur accuracy, and can disappoint those ppl who has better expectations of ur playing. Sigh. Paiseh i m not in a v gd mood today, cuz of u-know-what. I got so many sch work to do tmr i dunno whr to start.

Happy National Day

2006-08-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

Happy 41th Birthday Singapore! I m getting addicted to Gong shi jia's song "My Island Home". the song is nice and gong shi jia got great vocals! was singing it in the showers ;p
Solaris won the NE cultural mapping thingy and cheering competition ytd! solaris is so on! woohoo~ the nj celebrations are not so bad, better than ny's one i think(opps). After that we had our long-waited class outing. We had to take bus to newton first before taking mrt to cityhall cuz the 171 buses are exploded with ny ppl! haha cant help it lah. Anyway i finally get to eat my first japanese buffet...the food is great but i got too full too early. End up forcing myself to eat more and trying not to waste food, but still theres alot of food left. Then, jing jing and me had a crazy idea to go kbox with the two of us alone...we actually went to queue up to ask for the pricing, but u know wad? all rooms are FULL...first time this happened to me. So God have decided for me that we shudnt be antisocial and stay as a cls, haha. nvm jing jing we shall go on other days with more ppl :)
Then, we watched click. I though its gonna juz be funny and tts it, but its not. the movie is GREAT. very deep, meaningful and touchful. I havent watch a great movie in a long time. It teaches us to cherish the moment. To live life as it really is, not to let life juz pass by. To treasure this current moment that we spend with our family and friends, when we are all good, well and healthy, before we lost something and then to regret and realise that how much we should have treasured it. It's very painful if we are able to rewind our life and see how we have lived life blindly and spent time as if we had a million years to live. Because we dont. We only have limited time spent on this earth and God knows what will happen tomorrow. When the main character rewind his life to the last time he saw his dad, he regretted deeply when he was watching himself living it. It was a self-centred life. He cried. At the final moment of his life, it was then he truly realised his mistakes and how precious his family is, he chased after his son in the rain. It was so sad. This reminds me of my sec 2 literary text "Our Town", the philosophy behind the book and the movie is very much the same. I am going to dig it out and read it later. So people, pls watch it!
After that we went to watch fireworks. IT'S SO CHIO!!!!!! The esplanade was so crowded, droplets of perspiration began to flow out of my sweat pores, but i dont regret going, despite being so tired and reached home so late...becuz the fireworks really rox! Heee.
After reaching home, i continue working on my ssaa score and finally FINISHED. yeah! cant wait to start distributing the score and get practicising.

2006-08-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

I PASSED MY PIANO DIPLOMA! yay...finally i can strike off the piano diploma cert from my wishlist...its a dream come true :D Here's my marks for individual section:

Techniques: 20/30
Musical Response: 21/30
Communication: 20/30
Presentation Skills: 5/10 :'(
Total: 66/100
Sad, My presentation skills pull down my marks. Heres the remark for presentation skills:
"Well attired and presented with a sense of occasion. Programme notes were adequate but lacked consistent background information and were not presented in a recital programme format.The page turns were a little XXXX(cant read)-maybe you should have a page-turner."

I worn black blouse and pants for the exam, so obviously i was "well-attired" :p I luv black as my clothes, looks cool and make u looks slimer too. Anyway i think i did as wad i expected. I realised all piano examiners like to praise u first b4 criticising, no matter how lousy u are. Eg. "Rondo was well characterized but lacking fun" But, how to have fun during an exam? My hands already sweated so much tt even the absorbent powder dont work...

Any one with Sibelius music software out there? I need to borrow one to arrange SSAA scores...i am quite determined to really make SSAA happen and but realised its not very feasible, cuz the range of girls not as wide. But at least i should give it a try :)

I haven properly exercised in a long time. Before choir today, i went to play bball with clsmates! haha its so crap...i m useless and hopeless in bball, being so vertically challenged (meaning short) and nv been in sports cca. Looking forward to challenge bifang (or rather be trashed by) in bball...heee....

So many ppl falling sick nowadays...hey my dear friends out there, pls take gd care of your health k? Rest well during wkends!

I realised recently my pig blog layout has quite a rude phrase. maybe i should change it.

Hershey's Kissables candy coated milk chocolate

2006-08-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

Name: Kissables
Brand: Hershey’s
Place Purchased: 7-11
Size: 1.5 ounces Calories per ounce: 140
Type: Chocolate

Arent these the cutest candy with a shell to come along in years! Vibrant primary and secondary colors in that familiar Kiss shape only smaller and more “poppable.”
"Though Hershey’s Kisses are wonderful little candies, Hershey found out long ago that folks only buy them in large bags. Hershey tried for a while to launch smaller bags, but people just don’t buy them that way. Here’s an easier way to take Hershey Kisses to a movie (less unwapping, thankyouverymuch)."
But let’s get to the eating,These are tasty! My bro bought and ate half of his packet before giving me to finish. Super crunch and sweet! The inside is Hershey’s chocolate - very sweet, a little milky and with an overall pleasant smoothness. Plus, the looks are super appealing to the eyes. Pls try it ppl! Forgot wad price le...
Whoa tmr is a scary day. Almost determine how my 2nd half of yr will be

2006-08-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

Finally, i understood the real problem. Its not cuz of lack of ability, its the lack of character. And yeah! theres finally some direction.
Is blogging an outward expression of one's feelings? Looking at other blogs, i realised that there is often a certain emptiness deep down in teenagers' heart. That includes me too. Sure, life is stressful but boring, what a paradox. And it is difficult to please everyone. This brings to my mind this song:

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong, What's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
It's where she lies
Broken inside
With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected, andNow you can't find
What you've left by behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

She's lost inside, lost inside oh oh

2006-07-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

My last weekend juz went pass fruitlessly and inefficiently...no hmk done. Due to the 6+ hour kbox on sunday! Whoa cheng luan, xianyong, zhirui and me really sing until v high! After taking the klunch (11-2pm)package in cine, we felt that we hadnt sing enough So we decided to try out the new-ly opened "the one" karaoke lounge(we were very scared of the prices and the morality of the karaoke lounge ). But it turned out pretty well. Lol we are so high that we sang "shan hu hai" 3 times tt day! Singing kbox with choir pple really quite stressful, every1 can sing so well. Haha i didnt regret wasting the whole of ytd singing, its really fun, juz tt now i m lagging in schwork. Nid to buck up le.
My left pinkie and right thumb hurts. I hv been playing guzheng these few days, but never have i felt such pain before in my entire life of playing guzheng. Not like i practised very hard, i ve practised harder than these before and nth happened. Haiz
And, got back progress report today. Whoa my results are so poor such tt my physics results are as low as being at the 21 percentile. My goodness. Dunno how am i supposed to tell my parents!

2006-07-29T16:49:00.000+08:00

Yoyo!(not calling yh) i m changing layouts again...i m so fickle minded, my last layout lasted barely a week. And because of this new layout, i have to get a new tagboard cuz my previous tagboard is too large, cant fit in the borders. So pls flood it, peeps! haha! some of my posts are screwed cuz of the new layout, new bg colour wadva. i dont really bother to change them, juz in case i m chnging layout again.
Ohyes, something happened. I cant blv tts happening so soon, but my addiction for maple is finally dying off. I thot it would take some time for me, but even now as my parents arent at home, i m not mapling. Maybe bcuz its getting difficult for me to lvl, and the fact that no matter how much time i spend on mapling my character will NEVER be pro. And my common tests really sux so i nid to concentrate more on studies. But, juz as i was determined to be more hardworking, time doesnt permit me to. (hmm, i said this b4 right?)
Now i m beginning to regret changing layout, the previous one looked nicer leh.

2006-07-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

Smth rather demoralising happened today. Ahaha its not the same kind of demoralisation u receive when u do the common tests, cuz every1 feels the same way as u. But not for today, the demoralisation does not apply to all. But we really appreciate the frankness man! I promise myself i shall feel demoralise today and only today, tmr we are going to work on it. Jiayou people! We can do it! Friday is THE day. judgement!

2006-07-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

I shall use this font (verdana) so that people wun read until tou yun...hmm today's stella's special day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY the girl is finally seventeen, cant say i old le. We ate subway juz now and took neoprints after school to celebrate. Subway really rox! Delicious low-fat sandwiches plus YUMMY cookies with reasonable price...i dun understand how come some ppl dun like subway leh. And once again, we were not satisfied with the neoprints taken...always liddat one, everytime girls take photos they will always think they look ugly (lol including me i admit), but to be honest, thats how we normally look like lor, haha! Must face the truth ;p

Haiz we have a new GP teacher and seriously after the first lesson with this new teacher, i think i am gonna fail GP for promos. The teacher, being relatively advanced in his age, tends to be slightly long-winded and went out of point...took half a period to explain a 3-line paragraph. I think i must depend on myself for GP le. Speaking of exams, actually though i thought my common test results are trash, theres some good to it...i juz managed to maintain taking 4 h2 subjs, cuz i juz scoped 2 D and 2 S, juz nice the minimum requirements for not dropping any h2. Haha so tyco. But, i better beware. I should work harder, cuz the promos are not going to be any easier than cts. Haiz, after getting my ct results, i was quite determined to work harder from now onwards, but my busy schedule does not allow me to...i still find myself copying lecture notes blindly without understanding, not completing tutorials on time and end up borrowing clsmates' notes home to copy. Haiz i nid to juggle my time well, but it will mean sacrificing sleep too. My eye circles are darkening alr.

2006-07-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the encouragement! I was feeling low that day and crapped...i shud not hv taken things so personally. This has all along been my weakness: i was too sensitive. I nid to have more faith in myself and less fear.
Woohoo this few days have been busy for me...but they are all over! Missing lessons cuz of choral festival rehearsals, the actual concert and snr farewell. Juz in case u dunno, choral festival is a concert where a few students from top schs in choir from sec schs and JCs came tog to form combined choirs. Nth much could be said about choralfest, i wasnt enthu about it...only tt i dont know how to sing the everyone combined 248-strong choir's items and mouthed my way throughout the whole song. Most jc ppl also liddat...we leave the songs for the overly-enthu sec sch little kids to learn and sing(hehe jkjk).
Next, the snr's farewell! I thought it went pretty smooth, provided our limited preparation time period. I was most worried about soprano items, but i thought on tt night it was one of our best. According to snrs it was quite entertaining! yay agnes and laywang rox...and sopranos too! The comm item...firstly, the "better place" piano part(played by me) really sux, and everybody skipped 2 pages in the score, and poor xian yong(my piano score page turner) thought it was his fault when i suddenly flipped the score frantically. Haha the buffet was cool too! food was excellent, plus gd music when royston and gang started playing and singing kiss gd bye! wow choir really rox! After cutting the cake, we went atrium to hear alto snrs and TTBB sing....after hearing, i was so inspired to start SSAA! haha to show off girl power! But dunno whether will succeed anotz...
Sat's church service was really great. i gonna bring visitors next week le! It was really impactful...shirley's a great preacher manz. Her explanation was great...i fee like reading the new testament all over again :)
Senior+junior comm gathering was woohoo! It feels great to be part of a cheerful and fun-loving ppl. The bbq was great and we chit chatted with the seniors! about our job scope, on our performance so far etc...The seniors gave really gd advice man. And after that we sang sang sang sang sang until we forgot about time. The juniors sang double double toil and trouble(nx yr syf piece) and went really off...wao so paiseh. When i reached home it was 12 plus, haha. We are really gonna miss the seniors so much.

2006-07-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

I am not perfect, i have never pretended to be. I am only human, so i make mistakes like everyone else do. I am aware of some of my shortcomings, eg being impatient and having quite a short temper sometimes. I may not be the best person, but i am trying my best to fulfil my duties. I know that i am irritating at times, pls forgive me. I have not much choices, so pls do not hate me. I am still learning and trying to improve.
I am under so much pressure this week. I think I must have been a diamond now.

2006-07-13T20:42:00.000+08:00

I finally knew all my results for common tests today. DDSS. Beautiful (like real). Got back chem and econs today. Both Ds. Finally theres some subjs that i can pass, ahahaha. Due to a minor incident, for a moment i thought i got B for econs, but FAT HOPE lah, got D. I think all the moderation dont affect my grades, which always happen, like sec 4 prelims. Guess it's juz my luck. I got b4 for GP, and yes i got my one mark for physics and obtain an Subpass! haha i din playact this time k.
And jing jing, relax, i am really not angry with u lah. I shouldnt hv looked so fierce at first. Lets go kbox one last time before mugging hard for promos!
Woohoo i m getting more and more busy. For example this sat, i got choralfest rehearsal from 9am-1pm, guzheng lsn from 1.30- 2.15, church service from 3-5, and a concert at night. woohoo lets hope i won collapse and slp during the concert, nid to support my cousin. after nx wk i will feel abit more relax cuz choralfest and snrs' farewell will be over, and can start to enjoy the National day celebrations! heard tt xian yong has wrote a song to enter the talenttime thingy for NDC! Y0z~

A Straight FAIL student

2006-07-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

Who's a straight fail student? Me. 1 S and 1 F. Marvellous. It was initially 2 Fs, but due to a playacting on my part and a hint of compassion on the marker's part, i manage to squeeze one more mark to jump grade to subpass for math. Actually i think i quite deserve the mark. Lets juz hope that the playacting will work on the physics paper marker. I gonna see him tmr.

And math VA really sux. I spent the whole night and nx morning working for the EXACT proofs of the double bubbles meeting at 120 degrees being the optimal shape to enclose 2 air chambers using the minimum surface area. Well, i did eventually find the exact proofs, which is a research papers report by a certain top university in a certain part of Europe or America. The whole proof, which consists of hundreds of equations, is 20-odd pages long. Only then i realise that we are not supposed to present the exact proof to apply calculus of variation to the double bubble conjecture, but juz required to briefly explain. Wasted so much of my time.

Speaking of Europe, ITALY WON THE FIFA WORLD CUP 2006!! haha

2006-07-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

The NJC 2006 JC1 common tests 1 is over. The papers seriously sux and are killers. It was so bad that i only did half of the Math paper. Now i think my best subj is GP lah. I have never did papers that are so demoralising before. I don wanna face the trashy results so soon. Juz hope i wun be the last in cls.
The world cup fever was initially getting higher and higher for me, but was almost going downhill by argentina's defeat. Watched it at a bar during cls chalets. Its so sad. Argentina played better, even germany fans agreed. But anyway, germany's OUT. Right on their home ground. Cant tell ya how happy i am, but it would be much better if argentina is the one that trashed them. Haha Germany fans pls dont kill me! particularly someone who like ballack and lahms *winkz*. I din actually see the goals by italy. I was sleeping on the sofa in front of tv, only when i heard "GOAL!" then i opened my eyes. Germany practically already gave up when Italy scored a second time lah, this should not be the spirit. havent they heard of toiling to the very end? They deserved the defeat.
Whoa back to school today and realised how much work i haven done. i dunno how come i can play so much after common tests, when i knew i ve done poorly. Got blacklisted by ms koh for not doing energetics tutorial le. i hven completed, and how come i m still blogging here? I definitely not watching france v portugal, don hv the jing1 shen2. I m getting busier and busier liao, with choir stuff, pw, math va, guzheng and sch work. Back to mugging mood.

2006-06-24T19:06:00.000+08:00

I promise myself this is the last entry before common tests are over. Hai mugging seriously sux. I cant seem to focus as well as sec sch days. Why are the good stuff happening during the time when i m supposed to be mugging? Eg. world cup, maple bday bash...i m really getting distracted by the things around me. My common tests are suffering. Okay, this is juz an excuse, I think i hv poor self-discipline. I cant bring myself to even turn off the radio when mugging. Her Lay Wang, its time to buck up. No more world cup and pc from now on. I know i should hv done this long ago.

2006-06-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

Lizards SUX. especially big FAT ugly ones. Dont try scaring me with a lizard for april fool or wadeva, cuz if i heart attack who shall answer for it? lol

2006-06-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

Blogging in a rush here, dont have much time...
Today choir performed at Orchard Hotel for a certain prize presentation ceremony. Cant say much about how we fare, ms lim nv say much. I think we are not so bad lah. But I think the j1s and IPs need to bond more with her, its obvious that she likes the j2s better, lol. We more shy mah. Today shows more action of the new committee, hehe. Xing qun and Xiang ting are gd SCs, they really did quite a gd job :) After today's performance, its high time to concentrate on studies, even ms lim says so. haiz i getting worried, so WAD AM I DOING HERE? I SHOULD GO MUG NOW. after common tests the choir ppl muz go for kbox! hehe!

2006-06-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

What a slack day. I slept like a pig. Whoa this hols i really slept alot, average about 10 hours or more per day! Well, should i say i deserve it? During school days the amount of sleep i received is quite minimal, so it's only right for me to compensate for it right? Hehee =p
About one hour later its the TV premiere for Lord of the Ring-The Two Towers. The show ROCKS. All 3 shows ROCKS. With fantastic director Peter Jackson and marvellous actors, the shows juz cant go wrong, completed with a wonderful storyline. Those haven watch before pls switch on to Chl 5 later at 7.30 and tmr 7.30 too, you wont regret, even if it means missing abit of Japan vs Croatia match later at 9 and Switzerland vs Togo match tmr at 9 (soccer fanatics pls dont trash me). I simply adore the quote by Samwise Gamgee in The Two Towers that i have quoted in my previous template, and for the benefit of those who forgotten it i shall quote it here again:
"I know. It's all wrong. By right we shouldn't even be here.
But we are.
It's like in the great stories, Mr Frodo. The ones that really mattered.
Full of darkness and danger they were.
And sometimes you didn't want to know the end...
because how could the end be happy?
How could the world go back to the way it was
When so much bad had happened?
But in the end it's only a passing thing, this shadow.
Even darkness must pass. A new day will come.
And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.
Those were the stores that stayed with you that meant something.
Even if you were too small to understand why.
But I think, Mr Frodo. I do understand. I know now.
Folk in those stories had lots of chance of turning back, only they didnt.
They kept going,because they were holding on to something,
That there's some good in this world, Mr Frodo.
And it's worth fighting for."

2006-06-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yo. My piano exam is OVER. However, i didnt really do well, but i nv screwed up too. Dunno how to say. My goodness, my first piece SUX. Really. It seriously served as warm up, not as exam piece, u get what i mean? My palms were so sweaty, even the absorbent powder doest help much. Droplets of sweat were like leaking thru the layer of powder on the surface of my palms. I nv bring the powder into the exam room, so i practically wiped my fingers and keyboard after every movement/piece. UNGLAM, honestly. I wonder if the examiner will take marks off my shoulder for this. Haiz. When can i ever grow out of this? Sweatly palms! How can i shake hands or even hold hands with others without feeling paiseh and awkward? And if my boyfriend(if i ever hv one) ever complain about it, i will give him a tight slap(hehee).
So the world cup fever is really running high. I think i shall support ARGENTINA, lol. I don't wanna support brazil liao. Firstly, i think their standard drop. Secondly, too many ppl support, i dont wanna follow the crowd ;p Hai, i soccer idiot, forgive me if i offend anyone or say anything wrongly. Hmm, shall i go down to BP plaza to watch italyvsUS or even the holland match? tempted leh, but parents will nv allow lah.
I m getting increasingly worried about common tests. I really really studied very minimal. Nx wk still got choral fest prac and hdb performance. BUCK UP, lay wang, stop slacking. Get into Mugging Mood.

2006-06-14T21:08:00.001+08:00

Had our 06S12 day on 12 june! Lol we had kbox!!! Haha the guys very funny, at first girls in one room guys in another, but when alvin and roy sang they ran into our room. Then when roy singing Pan Duo La, jing and forgot who stayed in the same room, then jing an said "this is showcase of true friendship." Wadever lah.
With a hungry stomach after kbox, we went around the whole marina sq at least 4 rounds before we settled down on food court >.< And, me and stella(my new les partner) RAN around marina sq to get that bday for jing and xiu!!! Hehe we only used 6 small candles!! oppsy we forgot to count b4 we lit up the candles. xiu and jing like so shy lah, esp jing! But the cake is not bad, of cuz, its my recommendation.
Today i tried out the piano i would be playing on for exam tmr. CoOL, its a GRAND piano. But, the touch is quite hard, my trills cant come out nicely. But i was late! my booking time is 5 to 5.30, but i came at 5.15. cant find the place and cant find a taxi. I hvent try enough. Hopes tmr goes well. After trying the piano, i walked around in suntec, millenia walk, marina sq area for one hour before finding esplanade to take bus!!!! my gosh, my direction sense sux.

2006-06-10T13:48:00.000+08:00

Quite a few things happened this few days, I don't wanna talk all about them, its over.
5 days left to piano exam. It took me quite a while to realise the urgency! I havent been counting down and today when i did, i receive a slight shock. It's so soon. I am not well prepared. I dunno what to say about my playing...sometimes my fingers refuse to cooperate. Okay, its an excuse, its me who cant control my fingers. Well juz now i tested out the powder which could absord sweat from sweaty palms, it works pretty well ;p Maybe cuz i nv sweat too, cuz at home when i practise i feel quite relaxed. But during trials when my piano teacher listen to my entire exam performance i sweat and make the keyboard wet and slippery. Haiz, sweaty palms are hereditary.
So, is there gonna be a 06S12 day on 12 june? I wan some outing to relax myself leh. Budden i also have NOT been mugging! My common test will suffer.
Btw, i joined Nanyang alumni CO. I dunno whether i m official member or not, i m joining them for NYCO concert as alumni co. hehe. Dont have to buy tix to watch the concert liao. And my guzheng teacher ask me to play the guzheng in NJCO. I m quite keen, but dunno whether i can cope and if choir allows me to. see how first
Anyway, its Daisy's BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! I dunno whether she's in Singapore or korean now, but HAPPY BE-EARLY 17 th BIRTHDAY!!!!

2006-06-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Choir Elections today. I become soprano sectional leader! Thanks nj choir for giving me this chance =) though i got not much prior experience in choir...I thought my audition really sux lah. And they left the music comm results right at the end, made me so nervous...
All the candidates today rox! The speeches are quite interesting lah, unlike council ;p(paiseh to those councillors) The Q and A so tough, esp for the president candidates!!! scary =x lucky i not running for admin. AND, claudia TOTALLY surprised me! she's GOOD at speeches! Chuwen told me she took part in speech competition in st nicks...whoa! a hidden talent in our class man. Wad a pity she wasnt chosen. It must hv been really close man. So, here's the results:
President: Deb
Vice-Pres: Tammy
Secretary: Phoebe
Treasurer: Emilie
Quarter Master: Jensen (the only guy in the comm)
Sop SLs: agnes and me
Alto SLs: jiayun and sixuan
Tenor SLs: Cil and zhirui
Bass SLs: linus and jiahao
Student Conductors: xingqun and xiangting!!!
Woohoo the new comm are given a "quest" immediately! About the performance at HDB and planning snrs' farewell...jiayou new comm! we must succeed! haha :D

2006-06-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

Juz went jogging today. I haven jog at all since NAPFA and got stitch almost at once when i started jogging.
The choir interviews were ytd. They dragged for so long, my actual slot was abt 2 hours after the assigned timing. Haiz it didnt went well. All ppl who ran for music comm were supposed to "teach" the exc0 a short part of music. Very lucky theres a keyboard there, but i didnt teach well. They left the "teaching" to the first part, and i was super nervous at the beginning, and i din even give clear instructions like to sing in solfa, lyrics or juz lalala. Some snrs purposely sing off tune, and after teaching i am supposed to identify the ones some sang off tune. I wasnt even paying attention!! So i roughly guessed a few guys. Dunno whether correct or not. Then they shoot the usual questions, like how u assess sopranos in terms of musicality and attitude, how are u going to manage the soprano section, which is the largest section in choir. Haiz i was so nervous i din know whether i spoke clearly. Anw its over.
And for the final choir practice for j2s today...there were quite many tears. Ms Lim was so pleasant to the snrs, and i really think the snrs deserve such praises. Our snr batch is so talented, with two very musically inclined student conductors, two very responsible presidents, and very nice SLs who know when to be serious and when to hv great fun. We stayed after practice to sing all our songs to record them...and the banner for j2 are excellent! i feel guilty for not being involved in the painting. Anyway the J2s seriously deserved all these...and a fantastic farewell that we, the jnrs will put up =)

2006-05-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

Yo. I am back. Whoa really very long time since i wrote a proper entry. And changed my template le, cuz some ppl commented that it was SSOOOOO childish.
The June Hols are here! And our dear choir seniors are leaving so soon, so sudden =( Our choir concert were really great last sunday. We rocked the whole house down man! Wad a pity it wasnt really full house. And many thanks to choonyee jinqi xiangyu yanshao ziyu chokwan baojun alvin, and of cuz my mum and cousin for the support. and even amelia and stanley who bought the tix. I got so many chocolates tt i think i m getting FAT again. And thx to ziyu who gave me a belated bday pressie! SO SORRY ABOUT FORGETTING URS. i promise to get u smth :)
Tmr theres choir exco interviews. Scary~~~ I running for sectional leader and student conductor, in order of choice. I must do my best man. I thought of some questions they will ask but I couldnt think of the answers! Bifang and phebe said its quite difficult but is standard. Well, God bless me then.
I've not catching up with school work. Choir is busy, but thats no excuse i know. i guess i better do some mugging and catching up during hols. Lucky i m not gg overseas. I m not taking any H3, but theres no reason for me to slack for the common tests which is right after the hols.
This sunday gg for HCI CO concert! woohoo quite excited to meet my dear nanyang friends again! i miss 409 man. i miss old girls' school days.

2006-05-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

testing testing...testing new template...

2006-02-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

JAE registration is over. I've chosen HCI, NJ, VJ, AJ, ACJ, PJ and NP Accounting. All sciences. How can i ever take Arts with my kind of results, haha. I seriously dont blv ziyu is choosing VJ lorz, she like enjoy herself in RJ liddat. Ziyu, did you really put VJ as FIRST choice?
Now i'm worried i cant get into HCI. i alr rejected going to Verona, Italy Choir competition with NJ. If i stay in NJ i will regret not gg Verona lorz. I got a pathetic L1R5 of 8, as compared to other pro 6 and 7 pointers. Like alot of PAE hci ppl stayin. I didnt even try appealing by choir or gz. Sighz.
Whoa, Economics is so challenging for me! Esp writing structured essay...I think i wil drop to H1 Econs by the end of the year. Then only 3 H2 subjs for me. How to beat my bro for A's? He got 3 As for A's...v stressful lehz, to be expected to beat him. And GP is boring, the most boring subj after civics and PW, muahahaha!
Today got Road Run. Around the neighbourhood of linden drive and hillcrest road. I should have bia-ed right at the start.i only started chong-ing after see NYGH. Anyway without me chong-ing. Schiara cum Solaris still got the Top House in running! HAHAHAHAA so funny...it was totally unexpected. We all thot we are gg to go home empty handed, hahaha! Since we nv even win anything for chi new year, or total defence :p

2006-02-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

Got back O's results ytd. I got 8 for L1R5! But my 7A1s is for nth, really. They does not help with my L1r5! Anw now i'm in dilemma. Should i try for HCI or stay in my dear NJ class? The JAE period ends at Wed 5pm. I got 5 days left to decide. I shall see if i needa take Mother Tongue in NJ, i will go HCI. Cuz i heard from someone if HCL for o's is B4 or below muz take MT in JC. i dunno why my HCL grade is so pathetically bad. I really dont think i deserve that kinda grade. Maybe my compo write out of point of smth, or nv write question no. I dont know lah. I really dont wanna take MT again.
Went PartyWord KTV ytd to celebrate. Fun! PartyWorld was so much cheaper! Haha

2006-02-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

I grew taller!!! Finally....after like 3 years??? i thot i forever stagnant at 156! haha maybe the socks i wore for PE that day was thicker? haha! I'm 157 cm, though i know i'm still quite short, but now at least there's an additional career option for me: Police Officer. Minimum height 157cm for females, and weight 45kg. And i certainly have the weight qualification. Cuz my weight gain is greater than my height gain :'( after all the CNY goodies.
The release of O's results is quite comfirmed to be on the 10th feb, this fri. Wadeva rumours about that it's released on 6th(tmr), its all crap. Well of cuz i hope the MOE wont suddenly last min announce that its tmr. I need to prepare my heart beforehand, u know.
Today is the 8th day of the lunar lst month. Actually i still in hol mood. The CNY hols ended so quickly, i havent enjoyed enough. The gd news for this year is, my total angbao money achieved a breakthru. first time over 0.5k. I luv ba gua! Still got quite alot.

2006-01-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

19 days never blog!!! Lolz...so here's 2006 and i have spent almost 3 weeks in NJC. To be honest, I was very sianzed out and sad for the first week, but NJ gets more and more fun as time goes on...I like my OG and classmates! I'm starting to fall in love with Nj...I think i might juz stay here forever (or rather 2 years). It depends on whether by JAE i have fallen in love with NJ or not. But again my O'sresults might not be good enough to allow me to stay in NJ...I really wonder when's the day of release of O's results...Feb 6th? 10th? 12th? 15th? I'm quite scared...but at the same time i want to get my results quickly, cuz maybe i dont wanna live in suspense any longer ;p
Like many people, i chose PCME(Physics, Chem, Math, Econs) for my subj combi. Received only the temperary timetable for this week (the honeymoon week's ending soon). Only lectures this week. Totally not in the mood for lessons leh, me. Most of the stuff we learnt so far are stuff that we learnt in O's, except for econs, it being a new subj. The econs lecturer intro the subj econs for so long that the lecture was getting boring... i hope the actual topics are interesting. i heard from many pple that u would either do very well for econs or very badly...and my bro said that u will only enjoy the subj if u do it well. sighz.
Anyway my bro dearmt of me getting my O's results! And guess wad? He refuse to tell me how many points i've gotten in his dream...what's up with him?? And last week i dreamt of myself doing an o's paper...Music Paper 2! And the invigilator was Liu Li Sha, my sec2 chi drama tcher! And she didnt write the timing for the exams...so about 5 min before time's up, i asked her wad time would the exam end...and she said, "What do u think?" I vaguely remembered that at that point of time i've did two melodies for the composing questions and was about to choose one to present it in the exam script(strange, i usually dont hv the time to do 2 melodies!) So, I panicked totally...and then i woke up. The dream felt so real! And anyway, somehow the O's exam script in my dream had cartoon pictures on it! The composing question that i panicked required us to compose a music describing a mythical creature(strange, they dont had this kinda composing question in real life O's), and a dragon-like cartoon picture was printed beside the question! Hahaha! Now to think of it, how come the dream felt so real?
Oh yes, I wore Crescent's Girls uniform! haha i think i looked nicer cuz the sleeves can help me hide my flabby arms. Tmr gonna wear anderson's, on mon St Nick's, and on tue, MGS's! yeah.

2005-12-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

Woo! Xmas's over! Quite some time's gone without blogging...and quite some events too. Okay, firstly on the 13th of dec i got kicked out of superstar...shan't go into much details since it was some time ago. All right, it's round 3, only about 50 plus contestants left, i wasnt having much hope that i could make it thru, but i'll be happier if i could lah. i was third last contestant for girls, and my poor supporters stand out there waiting for my turn until their legs went jelly lah...my dad even took a day off frm his job. but i think i disappoint my supporters. They waited quite long for my turn, but my performance...the judges thot it sux. It's about my norm standard, but the judges juz said i chose the wrong song, and full-stop. very nice of them rite. But i was so very touched! Some of my supporters werent very close to me, but they came and cheered! Though the cheers i got werent the loudest, i thot it was loud already...i was so moved. Thank you so much, my friends!!! :D The FIR singing sensation from HCI, cheeyang, got in. I heard from my cousin (he's my cousin's friend) that he had a makeover, and he thinks his new hairdo sux, and he had to go to mediacorp everyday for superstar stuff! Whoa, tough work.
Well, what can i say? May the best man wins the contest.
Perhaps it's God's will, that leaves me more time to enjoy the hols! I was able to attend the xmas services! The sermon was soooo touching...it was one touching sermon i havent heard for some time. Pastor Jeff's great! I'm glad i've attended the same service both! The drama was great too. Xiang Yu delivered such a fine performance. And i bought Su Yi and Youxin to the xmas eve service! They also seemed to be very touched by the sermon...God's love for us is so incredible. But they didnt convert...Youxin said she dont wanna become a christian now and for Su Yi, i guess it's cuz of her religious family. Well, i believe at least a seed was sowed into their hearts! Youxin and Su yi, come for the 10 Jan service, okay? :)
The carolling at old folk's home on xmas eve was meaningful. We were hours late! The person in charge thot we werent coming, and we feel so paiseh...the visiting hours are actually over liao! But we were allowed in still...and carolled from 3rd lvl to 1st lvl. We were quite awkward at first, but soon become more and more natural, and more cheerful and warm too! Many of the old folks enjoyed our singing! They even moved, singed or clapped along...I think it's such a meaningful xmas present for them this year! Many of us were also so happy that day that jie min said she's gonna take care of her parents next time for sure, even if her parents dont want her anymore, which is quite impossible lah, lolz! I feel motivated to take good care of my parents next time too :)
Watched The Chronicles of the Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. Quite nice storyline! It was absolutely symbolic. The storyline is based on friendship, love, forgiveness and trust. Well, the four siblings, cant rmb the names, but they chance upon this wardrobe which leads them into a magical world of narnia. And, Edmund, the 2nd youngest sibling, betrayed his siblings and some friends they've made in Narnia, and because of this betrayal, some had died, and some were put in a very dangerous position. Then Edmund was held captive by the Witch of Narnia. Oh, btw there's a saying that 2 sons and 2 daughters of Adam(meaning 2 guys and 2 girls) will be able to destroy the evil rule of the Witch of Narnia, and restore Narnia into peacefulness. The rest of the siblings met Aslan, which is the 'good guy'. And Aslan, is the Lion. The Witch wanted to kill Edmund, but the Lion willingly exchanged his life for Edmund's even though Edmund had betrayed pple so horribly, all becuz of love. He went to the Witch alone, was mocked and persecuted at, and never even defend himself despite having the strength to. So, the Witch killed him, and then went to war against the siblings. However, the next day the Lion ressurrected! The Lion gave life to all that the Witch had killed, and then moved on to destroy the Witch. There was victory, then Peter, the eldest of the siblings were crowned as king of Narnia. Finally, the siblings went back thru the wardrobe back into the real world. The end.
Doesnt the Lion reminds us of somebody great and forgiving? Bingo, it's Jesus! Jesus is ABSOLUTELY holy, and ABSOLUTELY sinless, and yet out of great love, he willingly exchanged his life for sinners' lives, which are us. He was mocked, persecuted, had the strength to protect himself but never did so. He died for our sins, washing off our debts. But, He ressurrected and there was victory over the Devil! Glory to the Lord forever!
It's a great movie. People out there who havent watch it, pls do so. It's really meaningful, and even u werent interested in the cruxifion of Christ, it has great literature value too. Highly recommended by Lay Wang =)

2005-12-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

Quite some time never blog. Okay, there's church camp and grad nite...i very sad. I only went for one miserable day of church camp! It's supposed to be a 4-day camp...to think that i went for full time june camp, but this time only went for so little bit...why leh? Initially i can go for whole 4 days one, but my parents only relunctantly allow me to go for one day after i got in for superstar. cuz they think i shouldnt go for camp in case i got sick, cuz the 3rd round audition is next tue! (meaning 2 days later...) Cuz i can really fall sick quite easily. sighz, scarely i dont get in, which is very probable, then it's all for nothing. In fact, i didnt even go for one day...half of day i spent on grad nite and preparation. how should i say? grad nite was BORING. *yawns*
okay lah, maybe for me. What are the programmes??? belly dances, zhong1 he2 mi4 ma3, lucky draw????? worst still, dance disco from 22.15 to midnight. siao one. i thot grad nite would be of some value, like some touching speeches, got farewell atmosphere cuz its the last night tog, but NONE of this happen. Wads my $60 spent on? Wad a waste of money...those who never go are really SMART pple. haiz...any juniors out there, pls dont go for grad nite! unless u like disco dancing...well, some really did, dance until very very very....u should know wad. sexy. stand on the table and dance...well, i hardly even dance, cuz i hate clubbing. i went back to church camp at about 11pm, too sian and tired liaoz.

2005-12-01T12:27:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna rebond my hair on Sunday afternoon! Woohoo...so exciting! I've been wanting to rebond since...june? I initially wanted to rebond in the june hols, but i didnt wanna make my mum angry...obviously, now i dont care. She cannot restrict me forever. As my brother said, it's a constant 'battle' between we and our VERY conservative parents...i rmbed very clearly that once my bro wanna dye his hair, but my parents strongly objected...but did he care? the next day we saw him with shocking golden hair. So, i'm gonna rebond my hair no matter what. Hahaha, very rebelious of me hor.
I'm probably gonna rebond in Kimage. Soft rebonding. I know Kimage is ex...so i'm gonna let my hair be rebonded by a training stylist, (There's four different types of prices: training, senior, leading and professional stylists) and run the risk of burning my hair...haha, i dont think so lah, i believe even the training stylists in kimage are good enough. And i gonna cut my fringe shorter, it's getting disgusting! The last time I visited the salon was in march! :O
I went Far East with my mum to look for prom dress, I finally bought one! I was getting worried, cuz many had their dress, earrings, bracelets, shoes etc ready! My dress is a black tube, and it's knee-length. The problem is, i think i look abit fat in it :( gonna go jogging to slim down.

2005-11-28T09:38:00.000+08:00

AAAHHH! Now there's major network expansion server maintenance...meaning i cant maple now! now i'm alone at home lor! golden opportunity, but cant maple...sighz!
talking about maple, that day felicia and her bro brought to higly dangerous places in victoria island...so it was...FREAKY. totally. the monsters are those that kill even without touching you...very lucky that fel's bro was around...you see, he lvl 50 already! so zai...he protected us...and i very lousy lor, lian2 lei3 them often...cuz i suck in jumping! firstly we went to dungeon, i thought this got to be the worst of victoria island...but little did i thought that ELLINIA are more scary! magician's place leh...at first we saw lupins and zombie lupins...you know, the monkey which loves to throw banana around? i died the first time i saw it some months ago...i thought it was quite horrid liao, then we move on...until we saw... maladies!!!! the witches that FLY about...no escape at all...one touch could kill me that sort! and, becuz i suck at jumping, i went astray from fel and her bro...for a moment i was so freakily scared! but fel's bro came to my rescue, hahaa...well, it was useless, i died shortly afterwards...forgot what happened. so, i was transported back to town, and i tried to meet them back in the malady's place, but, i died again halfway! in the lupin's place. sighz, i know i'm being bu4 zi4 liang4 li4, lvl 23 only go this kinda place, haha...and you know what? fel and her bro literally SCREAM OUT when we reached the malady's place! i mean in real life...then their mama thought what happen, rushed into their room, so funny! but it was very nice of fel and bro to accompany me to this sorta dangerous places to satisfy me...i was the one who asked them to bring me to highly dangerous places one, ahahha! serve me right for dying twice.

2005-11-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

I got in for superstar round 2. Today is unlike round 1, round 1 is in front of ALL the people, but its outdoor and judges are quite...not very professional. But today, it's only in front of judges, but its more professional judges and theres aircon, so very cold...cant decide which is more freaky. 4 judges today, 2 of which i think are project superstar's judges. One is fang zhong hua, he quite nice leh. In project superstar i think he abit strict, but maybe he's more friendly towards students, haha. Or maybe he would become more strict next round...he asked me about my school results, and i was so deeply embarassed by my answers...i hope pple out there wont think i'm proud, i really had no time to think when he shoot me with questions! MY GOODNESS...i'm so PAISEH by myself. hope it would never appear on tv!
Round2 takes place in J8, 13 dec, noon onwards. Guys should be competing first. i'm supposed to bring supporters, and this is what worries me. i mean, i'm not a popular person at all, whether in school or church. i know i very thick-skinned, but pls tell me if you could down and support! or juz watch the audition, dont really have to support me. I know i'm despo. I asked a few people, and i think many got gatherings tat day...and my dear shepherd will be overseas on that day. haiz.
Junyang interviewed me! He's so friendly and nice...well, at least as a host. (He's hosting for campus superstar, with sugi?) He approached once i got out of the audition room, and start shooting me with questions. i replied so impromtu-ly lor, make a fool out of myself...cuz i'm so nervous! well, i'm not photogienic...he took down the lift with me, to meet my mother...and my mum! she cannot express herself well, and she didnt ans to junyang's questions...but it's very nice of junyang to cover up for her. well, i hope it wouldnt be shown on tv! so EMBARASSING...and my, Junyang is getting TANNER and TANNER...so tan now. and he's still as shuai as ever, muahahaha...i was quite wrong about him, i thought he was acting cool, but he is quite approachable...he would still remain as my fav singer for project superstar! :)

2005-11-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

Went for class chalet! So fun...i seldom go for chalet one. Finally learnt majong, after 16 years! quite fun leh, but i still very very beginner, still unsure of all the rules. Now i feel like buying a majong set to play at home with my family members...4, just nice! I slept at 4am during class chalet, and all those who said they wanna stay awake all night in the end still went to sleep lor...cannot tahan, too tired liao lah. And i was right not to start trying to lose weight before chalet, i ate so much during BBQ! Muahahahaa...can start now!
I've chosen my choices for JC for first 3 months. In order of choices, HCI, NJ, AJ, ACJ, SAJ, PJ, YJ...all sciences except for HCI. No choice, i got 6 points...so high lor! 10 points minus 4...At first i submitted my choices, putting NJ as first two choices, but today i changed my choices at RJ...initially thought i could appeal thru MEP, but it was fruitless. i felt quite paiseh leh, changing my first choice to HCI, at a comp lab in RJ! cuz i cant change my choices online, i had to go to a JC to modify my choices, hahaaha! The technician man at RJ was staring at me lor, like "HOW COME YOU NEVER GO TO HCI TO CHANGE YOUR CHOICES? WASTE OUR PAPER TO PRINT YOUR VERIFICATION SLIP!" haha.
I dunno why, but i feel quite nervous for superstar audition which happens 2 days later! I will try my best, but if God thinks that i should drop out, let it be so. God will decide. I know God has been helping for the first round of audition, i think i sang better onstage than normal that day. Whatever.
I finally realised that i can maple in aquila! HAHAHA! the trick is to keepon clicking clicking that you wanna get into aquila...now playing my dear warrior character, "ahlayz"! My dear ahlayz, you must lvl up quickly hor! Stop remaining stagnant at lvl 22! you've been at lvl 22 for more than 3 months! hahaahaaaahaaaa!

Welcome...

2005-11-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Hello! Welcome to my new blog, haha. I know this template is very childish, pls bear with it :)
"after O's" is FINALLY here! We can finally throw away all our sec sch textbks, notes, worksheets, files...all into the RUBBISH BIN. (juz kidding, i'm not doing there) but at least, we can throw it OUT OF OUR BRAIN, isnt that the best thing?
Well, what can i say about the O'levels papers? i actually cannot remember individual papers now, but generally it's okay, and of course, EASIER than prelims for most of the subjects, if not all(except for science practicals). i'm afraid of any major mistakes i've made, for example calculator being in the wrong mode for the a math paper, mcq shaded wrongly for one question thus affecting all the rest of the answers etc...mistakes that i never notice. sigh, no use thinking about it anymore, it's over. As for now, juz relax and play HARD. Actually i'm quite slow, only until ytd then i realised that we are really free. Cuz ytd me and my friends wasted LOTS of time, then i suddenly came to a realisation that we can afford to waste all that time. Well, how slow can i get? Hahaha.
Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire right after chemistry paper. I remember for paper1, i wasnt even in the mood for exams, thinking about post exams already. But in paper 2, i was rushing through the paper, so not thinking about post exams, so after paper2, i dont have that happy feeling yet. And the movie was SOOO nice. Quite different from the book, but its nice in its own way. Fred and George are forever so funny. When Ron is dancing with McGonagall(wrong spelling), they are like swaying to the music! Muahahaahaa...and that Ron so thick-skinned...never help harry in saving that fleur's sis in the 2nd task, but he got kisses from Fleur lor! Whatever...Cedric not bad looking lah, Cho okay lor, face maybe abit too round. I feel very sorry for Harry before and during the first task! I think i will feel even more sorry for him in the 5th movie. And i will CRY in the 6th movie...dumbledore died. Sighz, have to wait for another 2 years for the next movie...
Now, finally i can maple! But i'm very sad, everytime i try to play in aquila world, the concurrent players in the world would have reached the maximum, so i cant play. So, i'm training for my magician account, to obtain a job soon. Now level 7 plus plus already. Today can become magician! Haha~

2005-09-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

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